it's your birthday...

it's your birthday,
it's not mine.
don't let me ruin your day,
it might make you blind.

if I ruin your day,
and you are getting blind,
I should run away,
as if I'm still in your mind.

When I run away,
but I'm still in your mind,
what can I say,
I'm not that kind.

but I say nothing,
show I ain't important,
birds start singing,
for the unexpectable inheritance.

and the unexpectable inheritance
drives the bird to sing,
I have to say this but not often,
I'm going out from your ring.

happy niu Year!

it's still the same,
only on number,
not the year.
start with number two,
followed by two zeros,
if last year we've five at the end,
this year we add up one
so that it will be six.

Come here, Rain!

Come, come here rain

Come, come here, rain
I’m waiting for your drops
Since yesterday.
But none has reached my top
Nor my bones.
I’m waiting for you
My hope’s glimmering
Hope you’re not disappointing.

Sun has shown up
Wind has blown up
But why you are still hidin’?
I’m waiting for you
I’m waiting for you
Stop asking me
Why I’m waiting.
Only me myself have
The answer for that question.

Come here, come here, rain.
Don’t let me blubberin’.

24^th Dec 2005

“Gimme break!”

By now, I’m unable to think,
My mind is blocked.
Working since early morning
Breakfast with nothing.
My brain is starving
In front of TV I’m watching.
Please, help me!
I need a break
I need a rest.
My eyes are tired enough
Staring the sparkling monitor.
My sleepy fingers
suddenly cry without tears,
“Gimme break!!”
I reply,
“Hey, I still have another two
to be finished!...so, wake up!!”

3:08 pm

Gadis bertudung biru

Dan di perpisahan yang akhir itu kita berjanji, jadikan
pertemuan semula ini satu permulaan baru, benarlah katamu
gadis bertudung biru. Walau sedasawarsa jarak kita,
kenangan lama terhakis tiada, kisah baru dikongsi bersama.
Adapun kisah lama kita ada yang diingat-ingat lupa,
Namun tiap kali berbicara ada saja cerita suka, gelak ketawa,
terhambur segala kalut, hilang segala macam rindu. Gadis
bertudung biru, punya cerita kita berbeza, cita cinta rasa dan segala,
serupanya tiada walau sekelumit cuma. Beda kita dalam segala,
namun ketawa bisa dikongsi bersama, benarkan kataku
gadis bertudung biru. Gadis bertudung biru,
ceritaku di mindamu, ceritamu di mindaku. Apa yang kita
hafal hari ini bakal kita lafazkan di pertemuan yang
entah esok, entah lusa.Alis warna penghidupan menanti kita di hadapan,
ayuh kita langkah beriringan, semoga kaki kita satu derapan,
menuju masa depan penuh harapan.

17th December 2005
11.33 am

Cinta Kalin

Cinta Kalin
(sebuah refleksi filem Ungu-Violet)

Sukarnya hidup dengan sejarah berbuku di dada,
Kerana yang di depan mata mungkin terima akibatnya.
Kasih, sayang dan cinta terkorban begitu sahaja,
Tanpa ada usaha selamatkannya.
Dan biarkan hati, jiwa dan minda sengsara.
Ada insan mencintai namun dielak seikhlas hati
Semuanya kerana hidup berbuku sejarah di dada.
Abaikan insan menaruh hati dengan terpaksa
Insan terabai faham tidak masalah menimpa.
Insan terabai rasa ditipu dianiaya.
Mengapa tiada yang mahu terima?
Anggap suka-suka menolaknya
Memori tidak akan padam musnah hilang
Kewarasan dan pertimbangan berbekal ada.

Benarlah kata sang pujangga
Amatlah pedih menyakiti insan yang kita cintai
Amatlah sedih melukai insan yang kita sayangi
Namun bukannya dibuat tanpa periksa
Semua bersebab yang sekecil cuma.

the bystander II

The bystander
leans to the wall of hearts,
thinking of The Sweet Little Lady
he met years ago.
The girl never talks by lips,
But he always believe
they’re talking and listening
by heart.
(now, he’s smiling but,
his smile isn’t returned)

The bystander
took an immediate move,
made a confession of love
with a glimmer of hope
it would be reciprocated.
(and yes, it is accepted!)

The bystander,
thrilled and extremely delighted
now and every single time,
he’s glittered with happiness.

Day by day,
week by week,
they’re sailing smoothly
on the Titanic of Love,
through the sea of Passion.
But months after
the confession was made,
The Sweet Little Lady
left the bystander alone
with reasons of
mind-boggling complexity.

The bystander,
astonished and stunned,
surprised and traumatized,
and totally upset
as it’s the most shocking moment
he ever had in his life.

The bystander now,
sits facing a fireplace,
watching his heart
slowly kindled.

9^th Dec 2005
myHome

hujan

titis-titismu
basahkan bumi,
segarkan tanah,
bangunkan kami
dari lena siang
yang panjang.

titis-titismu
kami biarkan berlaku.
jika lebat, lebatlah.
jika renyai, renyailah.
tiada daya kami melawan,
apa lagi menahan
cukup sekadar mendoakan
kesejahteraan.

titis-titismu
gusarkan hati-hati kami
bila akan berhenti
menjadi rahsia abadi.
kerana ketika kau basahi bumi,
jam mentari tiada lagi berfungsi
jam minda tiada upaya mengira.

titis-titismu
kata orang,
bak air mata. benarkah?

I can’t share my heart with you.

It’s forever single
And of course never be
more than this.
Yes, I can divide it
No, it’s not for you.
I will share mine
But sorry,
I will never share it
with you.

Mine is red, Yours is blue,
It’s fated, I will never be with you.

30^th Nov 2005

a night to remember

it's a stupid discussion
in a night to remember
(fine if you have forgotten),
my words' sweet
my soul's exposed
my heart winced
my mind's wedged
unable to control my lips
I began to speak
unclearly and softly.

it's a night to remember
as it's a night for us
expressing the sensation
ignoring the numbness
and anything and anybody
and else.

fine if you have forgotten
it's not that important
to remember this night
if you don't remember
we don't need to fight
to prove who is right.

I began to speak
softly and unclearly
to admit
I'm damn guilty.

apa dah jadi?

lidah kelu
mata kuyu
tengok langit
diam bisu.
dada sesak
hidung sempit
tengok ladang
daun layu.
kaki pijak
tangan sepak
tengok rumah
kayu api.
hati mati
otak mati
apa dah jadi
pada diri ini?

4getting u @ melupakanmu

hari ini
lembaran baru kubuka
kerana semalam
aku baru sahaja berduka.
ya, kurasakan seperti
semalam
sedangkan
duka terlipat kemas
sekian lama.

hari ini
aku cuba
berbekal kudrat
sekelumit cuma
memadam bait-bait
memori indah bersama
sekalipun kusedar
ku tiada upaya.

hari ini
bukan masa dulu
yang mana
sukaku sukamu
dukaku dukamu
kini
suka duka kita
adalah berbeda.

hari ini
segala bagiku
sukar
hingga ombak kecil
kurasakan besar
pantai dihempas
seperti hatiku
terhempas.

hari ini
dan saban hari
aku bertanya
bilakah keajaiban
akan muncul?
aku ingin keluar
segera
dari segala
memori duka

28Nov 2005

-a friend asked me to 'create' a poem based on her feelings. so I just write it..perhaps she likes it. ^_^ hoho

mr sweet talker

I talk like a man,
but actually coward I am.

yes I talk a lot,
but most of them
can't be trusted.
I've dumped a girl
using my sweet words,
I've been rejected later
without any word.

yes life is fair enough
for a sweet talker like me.
perhaps others will put no trust
for a person like this.
I want to transform myself
to be not sweet talker anymore
but a person who talks less
and do more works.

lagu patriotik...

kampungku...

KAMPUNGKU SUDAH BERJAYA
PEMBANGUNAN SEKELILING
ADA JENTERA ADA KERETA PROTON SAGA
SAWAH PADI MENGUNING
NEGERIKU SUDAH MERDEKA
KEDAULATANNYA DIJUNJUNG
KUBEKERJA KUPERTAHANKAN MALAYSIA
ITU ADAT BERKAMPUNG
MAJULAH KAMPUNGKU
MALAYSIA OH TANAHAIRKU
WALAU DEKAT WALAUPUN BERIBU BATU
HANYA ENGKAU KAMPUNGKU

cerita tanpa kolaborasi

I

aku letih
mencari ruang-ruang di antara kalian yang bisa aku selitkan diriku
aku letih
mencari apa yang bisa buat kalian sedar akan wujudnya aku
aku letih
mencari apa yang kalian mahukan dari diriku
aku letih
mengikut apa yang kalian kerah, menurut apa yang kalian tuntut.

II

sudah lama aku tidak mengata orang
kerana dalam ramai aku seorang
yang ramai bisa mencaci hina aku
aku seorang dan hanya bisa mengata dalam hati

III

suatu hari aku akan hilang
relakan aku pergi
jangan terlalu sayang
kerna aku tak mau kau kecewa menanti

September 1, 2003

"Usah dilaungkan semangat yang tiada penyokongnya,
usah dihormat orang hilang kehormatannya,
usah dicemuh tanpa usul periksa
usah bersungguh jika tak rela dikata."

hazwan hamdan
1 September 2003

rahasia

perlukah untukku beritahu
segala yang ada di langit
segala yang ada di bumi
segala yang ada di antaranya
sehingga segala rahasiaku bisa kau kaji?

renung anak mataku
baca isi mindaku
hayati degup jantungku
apakah bisa kau capai
segala rahasiaku?

rahasiaku tertancap kemas
dalam sanubariku
dalam diriku
dalam jiwaku
tiada cara dapat kau
peroleh rahasia diriku

namun,
jika rahasia ini
bukan lagi milikku,
kau dan aku
tidak lagi akan bertemu
kerana jika rahasiaku diketahui
aku hanya akan tidur kaku membatu

unknown

on my way to Ipoh,
I remain silence in the car,
I let my parents talk
ignoring the music, the radio
and the mumbling deejay.
thinking of my coming exam,
no doubt I don't even realize
my mother is asking me a question.
(she thought I was dreaming for someone)
Raining outside and along the way,
I start listening to the music, the radio
and the talking deejay.

~16 november 2005
~5.00pm

holiday

no class
no friends
no lecturers
no homeworks
only some revision
to be made
because the holiday
has come.

myHome

++ me and my editor

fell in love with my editor,
wrote a poem on her lips,
she replied me with another
entitled; " a rejection slip."

10/11/2005
10.11 am

s H e 3

dalam dunia yang mega kian sirna
aku mengerti
ada benar ada palsu
ada jujur ada pura-pura
dan dalam diri yang kian menyepi
aku kian menyendiri

10/11/2005
Library

++ bystander

she,
talks sweet when
the desired one
did not respond to her messages.
she,
dreams about me when
the desired one
busy with his assignments.
she,
promises me love when
the desired one
failed to keep promises.
she,
likes me only when
the desired one
is not the one who she desires
anymore.

kota bharu
6 nov, 2005
on the bus

s H e

she,
is just a friend of mine
same like all of you.
so,
do not confuse yourself
with anything else
as she,
even has stolen my heart
still I am not in hers.

Once when you are in my arms

I can reach up to heaven
And pluck out a star from the blue.
It is true, but only when you are in my arms.
I can live without riches
And still have a million or two.
It is true, but only when you are in my arms.
Though I am ambitious, my wishes
Have always been simple and few.
Give me the moonlight, the music
And, darling, an armful of you.
I can see myself doing
The things that I never could do.
It is true, but only when you are in my arms.

Anonymous

Unhappy

For the problems
To be thought
And pleasure of being sad,
I’d rather glad to be unhappy.

Mypoetry

I know my poetry is not
Ayam Golek Bermadu or Nasi Kerabu,
I don’t want those who read my poetry
throw them into Sungai Kelantan,
I just want the readers to taste my poetry delicious,
As delicious as Akok Panas or Jala Emas.

24^th October 2005
12:50pm
My class

A friend and a special one

A friend and a special one

A friend and a special one
Should not ask another friend
To forget about the friendship
That has built.
A friend and a special one
Should not ask another friend
To stop thinking about the friendship
which is not as same as before.
A friend and a special one
Will always think about the friend
Will always love the friend
As long as the ship called friendship
Sailing freely at the wide-open blue sea.

+ salam ulang tahun +

as I turned 19,
I realize that
I must learn
how to use things
and love people
but not love things
and use people

~happy birthday to me...

~~A bystander

A bystander
stands to the wall of love
with a cap covers his head
with a glass covers his sight
He waits for the girl
He admires
He adores
He likes
(and he loves,
deeply and madly)

When she walks in front of him
He is thinking to call her
But he knows she will not reply
He knows she will not respond
He knows she even will not
turn her head

A bystander
living his own life
waiting for the true lover
to appear in his life
Even though he is quite sure
His love is not reciprocated
His love is not returned

A bystander
now,
sits behind the wall
(as he knows she will not going
to look at his face anymore).

12th October 2005
9.10 a.m
myClass

bad day... ;-(

harta abadi

aku punya harta sendiri
dari duit hasil titik peluh
yang bukan anak tani
dari duit hasil titik peluh
anak jati bangsa ini.

aku punya harta sendiri
dibeli bukan kerana riak
dibeli bukan untuk angkat diri
dibeli hanya kerana enggan merangkak
serta letih berjalan kaki.

aku punya harta sendiri
tapi harta ini telah dicuri
oleh bangsaku sendiri
tatkala purnama enggan muncul diri.


05102005
(hari motorsikal aku ilang...)

+ Life is Love +

Life
is
Miserable

when
love
is not
reciprocated

111005
outside the lib.

+ ah...i'm confuse... +

"say what you want to say today because tomorrow is one day late..."

day by day,
week by week,
I don't want to say
that I'm getting weak.

if one day I say,
that I'm really weak
perhaps you can stay
back at least for a week.

hope you can stay
back more than a week
so that I will pay
for the love you seek

I am going to pay
the love you seek
I am not going to play
afraid you will fall sick

my love leaks
my heart breaks
if what she says
is a part of plays

Multimedia Internet, KB
29/09/2005
5.40pm

+ i will go +

Am I too fast
Am I too slow,
to find a love
that never wants to show,
lack of experiences
makes my confidence low,
Methought of being more brave
so the feelings could blow,
my words stucked
they refused to blow,
if I fail this time,
I will go,
I will go.

20/9/2005
OBT Ldes

the importance of being earnest

it is important
to be earnest.

~9.55 a.m
~library

+ tentera 'buffalo' +

Buffalo Soldier, Dreadlock Rasta
There was a Buffalo Soldier
In the heart of America
Stolen from Africa, brought to America
Fighting on arrival, fighting for survival

I mean it, when I analyse the stench
To me, it makes a lot of sense
How the Dreadlock Rasta was the Buffalo Soldier
And he was taken from Africa, brought to America
Fighting on arrival, fighting for survival
Said he was a Buffalo Soldier, Dreadlock Rasta

Buffalo Soldier, in the heart of America
If you know your history
Then you would know where you coming from
Then you wouldn't have to ask me
Who the heck do I think I am

I'm just a Buffalo Soldier
In the heart of America
Stolen from Africa, brought to America
Said he was fighting on arrival
Fighting for survival
Said he was a Buffalo Soldier
Win the war for America

Dreadie, woe yoe yoe, woe woe yoe yoe
Woe yoe yoe yo, yo yo woe yo, woe yoe yoe(repeat)

Buffalo Soldier, trodding through the land
Said he wanna ran, then you wanna hand
Trodding through the land, yea, yea
Said he was a Buffalo Soldier
Win the war for America
Buffalo Soldier, Dreadlock Rasta
Fighting on arrival, fighting for survival
Driven from the mainland
To the heart of the caribbean

Singing, woe yoe yoe, woe woe yoe yoe
Woe yoe yoe yo, yo yo woe yo woe yo yoe(repeat)
Trodding through San Juan
In the arms of America
Trodding through Jamaica, a Buffalo Soldier
Fighting on arrival, fighting for survival
Buffalo Soldier, Dreadlock Rasta

Singing, woe yoe yoe, woe woe yoe yoe
Woe yoe yeo yo, yo yo woe yo woe yo yoe

~ni lagu bob marley. aku selalu gak dgr lagu ni kl lepak kt bilik ajan. tensen2 buat keje, layan je lagu ni. hoho..xpnah dgr? download la cepat!

Ragam rajuk

ada yang senyap
ada yang bising
ada yang berlari
ada yang membatu.

ada yang tak tahu
ada yang pelik
ada yang hairan
ada yang jelik.

ada yang baring
ada yang terlentang
ada yang mencangkung
ada yang kangkang

ada macam-macam ragam
bila merajuk
macam-macam ragam
bila memujuk
macam-macam ragam
buat-buat tak faham.

~10.57 a.m
~Library

persembahan dari + Surga +

"welcome to you my special guests.."

my friends and I, we've just finished performing 'dikir barat' to a group of lecturers from University of Hadfordshire,UK. they arrived here at about 9a.m and they're here to visit our college and to observe the PISMP Mathematics and Science students. What I heard was, the PISMP students will be linked to this university! urghh!!how can? we're the entertainer, but the PISMP students will get this kinda oppurtunity?duhh...but, all of us didn't care much on that. We're delighted as the foreigners are stunned with our perfomance. we served them with 3 songs, they are; Welcome to You, Oh Carol, and Wind of Change. wait! there's another song...it's 'ambo raso berkene.' it's a modern dikir barat song and it is sung in Kelantanese dialect. even though the lecturers understand nothing, but we're happy when they gave us a big applause! clap!clap!clap! huhu ^_^;

~Special thanks to Po'we, Suluq, Heikal, Shuk, Qlah and Hikam for their support and commitment to make the performance a success..

merdeka@48

Jendela

aku menanti di jendela
di balik bidai dan tirai
mahu melihat perarakan panji merdeka
mahu mendengar tempik sorak merdeka
mahu lihat anak bangsa merdeka
aku menanti di jendela
kerana jendela ini
pasti akan aku buka
untuk cinta
untuk bahagia

Library,30th August 2005
12.35 pm.

~salam merdeka! semoga kita merdeka minda, merdeka bahasa, merdeka budaya, merdeka segala...

August

August starts to shade a bit towards shade,
Upon the cusp of full tide and retreat.
Gifts of grace accumulate through time
Underneath the sweat of the sublime,
Substance that no silence can defeat.
Though evenings earlier begin to fade.

~baru lepas menziarahi senior2 cohort 1 aku kt UiTM Shah Alam. ntah nape, sayu je rasa...Masa diorang ada kat mpkb, mmg seronok. byk benda bleh share dgn diorang. byk citer boleh didengar..dulu, bilik diorang, sebelah menyebelah. sekarang ni, Lee duk 3rd floor, Yus 5th floor, che'lah 5th floor blok lain. duhh...tp, perperhal pon, korang still the best. Chaiyo!!

Tesl Language Camp 2005

hmm...nk cakap banyak pun xgune. yg penting aku puas hati dgn perjalanan carnival ni. ada la skek rasa upset. tp, kiter kne jd profesional. xbleh nk emosi sana sini. buruk padahnya...so, sebagai tuan rumah a.k.a penganjur sulung, diharapkan agar maktab seterusnya dapat perbaiki kelemahan2 yang obvious ataupun yg tersorok di balik tirai dewan wawasan nu. perhaps, the 2nd will be better than the 1st one, rite? thanx to all C3,C2 and C4 members for the help and support throughout this carnival, Mr Adnan, Tn Hj Wan Muhammad, Lecturers of English Department, Pengarah, and to all participants,THANK YOU.

Jadikan MCKK `kampung akademik'

KUALA KANGSAR 6 Ogos - Raja Muda Perak, Raja Dr. Nazrin Shah bertitah, Kolej Melayu Kuala Kangsar (MCKK) wajar dibangunkan hingga mencapai taraf antarabangsa yang berupaya menawarkan tempat pengajian kepada pelajar-pelajar Melayu dari seluruh dunia.
Titah baginda, bagi merealisasikan tanggungjawab itu, MCKK wajar dijadikan perkampungan akademik bagi seluruh rumpun Melayu dan untuk itu sebuah kurikulum di peringkat antarabangsa seperti International Baccalaureate wajar diperkenalkan kepada pelajar.
``Untuk itu, atas nama Pengerusi Lembaga Pengelola MCKK, beta menawarkan kepada negara, kesediaan MCKK mengambil tanggungjawab besar tersebut; tanggungjawab membantu merealisasikan hasrat dan impian negara untuk muncul sebagai sebuah negara maju, bangsa yang dapat berperanan aktif, merealisasikan pelaksanaan program pembangunan insan di peringkat antarabangsa.
``Ini kerana dalam tempoh 100 tahun yang lalu, MCKK telah mengambil langkah mencantumkan pemikiran muda Melayu di tanah air ini, melalui program pendidikan.
``Untuk itu, biarlah, Bandar di-Raja Kuala Kangsar, sekali lagi menjadi tanah dan bumi, tapak semaian yang dapat mencantumkan dan menyatukan pemikiran dunia Melayu,'' titah baginda pada Hari Ucapan dan Penyampaian Hadiah MCKK 2005 di sini hari ini.
Baginda yakin, MCKK adalah antara pusat pendidikan yang memiliki keupayaan untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawab sedemikian.
``MCKK bersedia mengambil tanggungjawab, menjadi perkampungan akademik bagi seluruh rumpun Melayu.
``MCKK mempunyai potensi, menjadi tapak semaian tunas muda Melayu untuk membina rangkaian hubungan dan kerjasama di peringkat global,'' titah baginda.
MCKK telah mencapai usia 100 tahun setelah penubuhannya pada tahun 1905 hasil pemikiran dirumuskan oleh Raja-Raja Melayu.
Pada masa itu, Raja-Raja Melayu berpandangan adalah penting bagi anak bangsa, dibekalkan dengan pendidikan dan diperlengkap penguasaan ilmu pengetahuan selaras dengan keperluan semasa negara dan dunia.
Fikiran radikal Raja-Raja Melayu 100 tahun lalu telah mencetuskan satu revolusi pendidikan kepada orang Melayu khususnya dan kepada negara secara menyeluruh.
MCKK pada mulanya ditubuhkan untuk anak-anak golongan aristokrat Melayu tetapi keadaan berubah menurut masa dan kemasukan para pelajar kemudian menurut merit.
``Negara hendaklah terus bijak, mengatur langkah strategik, mengambil peranan sebagai pemimpin, memenuhi keperluan dan permintaan di persada antarabangsa dan harus bersedia, berfikiran lebih terbuka - lebih fleksibel, dalam melaksanakan program pendidikan,'' titah baginda.
Baginda bertitah, MCKK di era globalisasi, teknologi maklumat dan komunikasi dan di era ekonomi berpaksikan pengetahuan, perlu berani mengambil tanggungjawab lebih besar selaras dengan wawasan negara untuk mencapai taraf negara maju.
``Semoga pencapaian hari ini, dijadikan tangga untuk memperoleh kejayaan lebih besar,'' titah baginda.

] k o s o n g [

aku berlari
sedang kalian
lihat aku berdiri
pelik?
aku melihat
sedang kalian
nampak aku tidur
ajaib?
aku sepi
tatkala kalian
lihat aku mesra
aneh?
aku kosong
sedang kalian
rasa aku cukup segalanya.
jiwaku kosong
dan terus kosong.

3rd August 2005
1.10 pm
Library

+ dari sahabat buat sahabat +

hmm...member aku yg paling best, ^pengembara^ telah selamat merasmikan blognya. if i'm not mistaken, the address is http://malaywriter.blogspot.com. he has the spirit, so i really hope that he will success in this new field. being a writer is not as easy as we all thought. we need to create our own style, if not, we will never have our own readers. in order to be a good writer, of course, we should have to read a lot. reading is not meant only for academic purpose, we also should read to improve our knowledge because in this so-called borderless world, -mawi?World?- we should be a knowledgeble person. for instance, how many of us (or our friends) know the meaning of AP (Approved Permit) and what it is meant for? or do we know what actually happen between (Datuk Seri)Rafidah and (Tun Dr) Mahathir? huh...

"the grill is far from the fire.."
"HUH?"
"it's a literal translation of malay proverb; jauh panggang dari api"
"Owh...Ok"
"You MALAY people...should know better!!"
"Oppss..."

well, it's just a part of the Drama that will be staged up in a few weeks. Dude! the carnival is approaching and i can still see that some of us still don't know what they're going to do. Hush! i should tell them and make them realize that this is a serious matter. students all over the country will come and stay here for a week (at least 5 days...) but, some of them seem 'main-main aja'...Duhhh...

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Karasparma 3

"terima kasih..."
"kenapa?"
"sebab bagitau saya apa yang patut saya tahu."
"apa dia?"
"awak dah bagitau saya bahawa awak..."
"biler saya bagitau?"
"tidak...ia tidak literal...hanya responsif"
"..."

+ dream BIG +

hmmm...bodoh pnye PC! penat2 aku tulih panjang-panjang...kau tetiba 'cannot find server'. hilang mood aku nak tulih tau tak!..apa2 hal pun, aku cuma terkejut la coz baru2 ni ada orang bangkitkan isu Social Drinker. rupa-rupanya ramai social drinker kat luar tuh. maklumlah, aku ni asal dr kampung, so istilah cenggitu aku x pernah dgr la. ada jugak remaja melayu yang mudah terpengaruh dengan air setan ni. dah la x sedap, dapat dosa lak tu. hai lah badan, apa lah nasib kau, badan...tuan kau minum air setan....hmm...

p/s: happy birthday, kidtiey!

hidup ini indah...

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...
Seiiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku telah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
(Namun kau masih) terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan
Tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban
Tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...

~OST filem Ungu Violet...lagu ni PADI nye.aku pn dh lama tggu album padi kuar. tup tup, dah kuar ah kt market. hmm...aku tak bisa...aku butuh akan sinar cinta yang suci. kerana aku pernah nodai satu cinta keramat abadi.aku hanya inginkan ketenangan. bukan satu kesulitan dalam berpacaran. perkenankan permohonanku, ya Tuhan. kerana hanya Kau yang menentukan...

nama saya...

Isikan tempat kosong dengan jawapan yang betul.

saya bosan...nama saya ___________________.saya tinggal di___________________. saya tak bosan sebab ada anak-anak saya di sisi saya. sebab saya ada anak yang comel-comel macam kucing di blok D. hahahahahaha....kucing kat umah aku?oppsss...silap-silap...comel macam Rabbit la...walaupun rabbit tu dikurung bersama-sama ayam katik, burung terkukur, itik serATIE, serta anak itik yang lemas...(owh...dah ada anak ayam la plak...huhu dua ekor lagik). Di samping itu, ada juga sepohon pokok Pauh delima batu anak semilang di tapak tangan. buahnya ranum sekali (sekali je tau)...dua kali, x ranum dah...dah la tu. puas ngarut yang bukan mencarut, saya chow dulu..dengan ucapan...Happy Anniversayur tu budak-budak C3 yang tersayang. Brotherhood lasts forever...

p/s: hmm... anak yg paling bongsu tuh yg paling baik.. hikhik.. ^_~

I'm sitting in the middle of nowhere

I'm sitting in the middle of nowhere
but at the side of the road
looking at the starry skies
without even a moon
down to a nearby river
drink till dry
waiting till tomorrow
in the middle of night

karasaparma II

"pening.."
"apahal?"
"ntah..ntah.."
"pendekar tua berlagak muda"
"huh.."
"I have the beginning and the end.I have the first and the last.but, I have nothing in the middle..."
"apa tu?"
"true LOVE"

Chance for our schoolboys to face foreign teams in Cobra 10s

PETALING JAYA: The country’s young rugby talent will get a chance to lock horns with their foreign counterparts for the first time in the schools competition of the Cobra 10s invitational tournament, which will be played at the Petaling Jaya Stadium in Kelana Jaya from Sept 9-11.

The Combined Old Boys Rugby Association (Cobra) vice-president, Tommy Pereira, said that the Under-16 schools competition would have a team each from Britain, Singapore and Thailand.

“St Andrews of Singapore have accepted our invitation to compete in the tournament,” he said.

“The schools competition will have eight teams and we plan to stage a qualifying tournament to decide the five local schools in the fray.

“It should be exciting for the local schools this time. They will be exposed to a higher level of competition and also get the chance to see where they stand against the foreign sides.”

The schools competition, which was introduced last year, will be held on Sept 9 and the classification matches will be played simultaneously with the main event on Sept 10 and 11.

The eight schools who featured in the tournament last year were Sultan Abdul Hamid College, Malay College Kuala Kangsar, Royal Military College, Alam Shah School, SM Sains Selangor, SMK Sultan Sulaiman, Bukit Jalil Sports School (BJSS) and SM Tunku Jaafar. BJSS emerged as champions.

As for the main competition, the entries will remain at 16 teams and they will be fighting for the prize money of US$30,000 (RM114,000).

Samoa’s Marist St Joseph took home the title last year, crushing New Zealand Ponsonby 29-5 in the final.

The efforts to improve the standards of the rugby playing schools in the country are in line with Cobra’s long-term plan to help develop the game at grassroots level.

Cobra launched their nationwide three-year schools’ development programme this year with the England-based Penguins RFC providing the coaching expertise.

Their aim is to get teachers involved in the sport and the target is to have 360 of them as qualified Level 1 coaches at the end of the programme to train Under-15 players in schools nationwide.

Cobra will be inviting two schools for a rugby camp in Hulu Langat this weekend.

karasaparma I

"keliru?"
"kenapa? tak bleh ke?"
"biase la tuh"
"bukan selalu pun.."
"ni pasal perempuan la."
"abis tu? perempuan laa..."
"payah betul"
"kenapa lak?"
"aku takut tersilap langkah macam hari tu"
"yang dulu...anggap sebagai pelajaran pertama kau"
"huh...aku takut"
"TAKUT??"
"yer la..."
"jangan takut...hidup ni macam Laut.Ada pasang surut...kau tak boleh berada di kesenangan selamanya..adakalanya, kesusahan lebih beerti dan banyak mengajar kita"
"terima kasih, Otak"
"sama-sama, Hati"

Cinta~

Menapak jalan yang menjauh
tentukan arah yang kumau
tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
yang membuat hati lara
Didekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akankah menghilang
dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Cinta
tegarkan hatiku
tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
naluriku berkata
tak ingin terulang lagi
kehilangan cinta hati bagai raga tak bernyawa
Aku junjung petuahmu
cintai dia yang mencintaiku
hatinya dulu berlayar
kini telah menepi
bukankah hidup kita
akhirnya harus bahagia

Cinta
biar saja ada
yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
bagaimanapun hidup
ini hanya cerita
cerita tentang meninggalkan dan yang ditinggalkan
cinta..

~Melly feat. Kris Dayanti

cuti dah nak abess..

cuti dah nak abes. assignment x siap lagi. 12Nite x habis baca lagi. presentation utk Survey pun baru separuh jalan. huh...apa yang siap? hari jumaat dah nak balik.Seyh...ha ha tak tahu, keje x siap lagi. ada yang nak kena sekeh dengan mr Sudhagar nih.
apa2 hal pun, aku hepi masa cuti ni coz sempat join reunion sabtu lepas. huh...rindu giler nak jumpe korang. sampai gak hajat aku akhirnya...

p/s: ntah..ntah...

reunion..

Reunion 6 Bestari 1998
a.k.a BESTARIAN class of 98

Tarikh: 11 Jun 2005
Venue: 1. Hillcity Hotel, Ipoh.
2. Kinta City, Ipoh
Kehadiran: 15/30
~Ihsan, Amirul, Zahirah, Radin, Aswad, Hazwan, Izzati, Haizum, Aisyah, Intan, Azhwaa, Nadiah, Sarah Majidah, Sarah Shafawati, Farazila.

Reunion ini dirancang dalam masa 3 hari, namun masih berjaya dijalankan dengan jayanya. Semua yang dating ni sebab masih bercuti selepas menamatkan pengajian di matrikulasi dan sebagainya. Walaupun tak semua masih tinggal di Parit, kitorang masih dapat berjumpa hari ni. Ihsan dan Amirul tinggal di Batu Gajah; Zahirah, Radin (Ipoh); Sarah dua bersaudara (Manjung)…yang lain-lain tu je tinggal kat Parit yang indah permai ni. Seronok gler jumper korang sumer… study suksess..hehehe. Ihsan dh nak fly ke US; Radin nak buat Law; Aswad sambung Matrik die yg ter…; Nadiah kat UiTM Machang; Azhwaa kat UiTM Kuantan; Sarah , Zahirah n aku buat TESL…; Haizum, Izzati, dan Aishah tgh cuti lg pas m3x.huhu…sumer dah beso. Sumer dh berjaya dgn apa yang dikejar. Berubah? Mesti la ada. Takkan x berubah langsung, kan? Seronok..gelak-gelak. Citer pasal zaman darjah 6 yang penuh dgn unsur-unsur naivety. Banyak kenangan yang x dapat kiter lupakan…

~tempat ini banyak meninggalkan kenangan kita bersama. Takkan kita dapat lupakannya sampai bila-bila…

Kata-kata itu yang aku pegang setiap kali aku mengingati korang. Makan? Hehehe…bukan nak makan sangat pun aku kalau jumpe korang. Aku nak bergelak ketawa puas-puas. Nak dengar citer n gossip panas. aku datang sebab nak jumpe korang sumer. Lepas makan, kita ambik gambar sampai bateri digicam aku ‘kong’. Dapat gambar skek je. Bateri digicam Ihsan pun kong gak mcm aku punyer..terpaksa la simpan utk nx reunion, baru ambik gambar puas-puas..

Lepas makan, kena exercise, kan? Hehehe…senaman hari ni bertajuk…Bowling. Venue? Kinta City la.. 4 orang balik (tak join coz parents suruh balik awal..) Pegi sana naik 4 kereta; Radin, Amirul, Ihsan and Aswad. main punya main, x sedar dah lewat. Sumer menyerlahkan bakat terperap masing2 dengan melontar bola ke longkang yang disediakan di kiri dan kanan setiap lane. Amirul la juara coz die wakil Perak Tengah untuk SUPER III dalam acara Bowling. Yang lain tu, sekadar mengharap nasib je la. Strike? Heh sekali je. Aku pun 1st time main Bowling. Sumer pun pakat kongsi satu alasan yang sama.

Abis main bowling, ingat nak bantai Pizza lak. Tapi, girls dah nak balik. Takkan aku, Amirul dan Ihsan je nak makan, btul tak? So, acara tu kitorang KIV dulu…kalau free, kite kuar lagi, ek?
Hari kian tua…sumer pakat nak balik. Amirul akan organize nx reunion coz Ihsan akan fly dalam masa terdekat ni. Aku tumpang keta Aswad untuk balik. Hujan dan lagu Suratan atau kebetulan yang berkumandang di radio ketika itu menambahkan mood yang solemn hari tu. Sedih, gembira, dan semua perasaan bercampur baur di akhir pertemuan kitorang. Sumer berharap dapat datang pada nx reunion yang akan datang ntah biler. Aku cuma suggest kat diorang supaya nx reunion, kita buat masa Hari Raya Aidil Fitri.

P/s: jumpa lagi. Satu hari nanti. No tepon dah ada, forget me not :-)

Bawak pen selalu…

"Lonely"

Lonely
I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
girlI'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)
I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll
Lonely, so lonelySo lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonelySo lonely, so lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely

::akademi fantasia 3::

1st concert diorang mmg best. mcm dah pro je aku tgk. mcm bukan pelajar je. tahap best2 dah diorang nih. hmm...cuma macam biasa, nobody's perfect. tp, frankly speaking...mmg best giler. kagum aku dengan bakat yang diorang ada. jeles gak! haha...harap2 ada la member2 aku masuk menatang AF ni. bleh gelak sampai guling-guling.

"jangan balik lagi...kita ada show lagi lepas ni!"

itulah kata-kata M.Nasir yang telah menggamatkan keadaan Stadium Malawati Shah Alam sebentar tadi. Disangkakan pengumuman penyingkiran, rupa-rupanya kemasukan semula 2 calon pelajar AF3. I'm not one of the 'kipassusahmati' AF, but still I watch and enjoy it. What a TV show for, rite? Enjoy it-lah...jangan asyik duk tensen2 kan diri...watpe? hmm...esok pagi nak pegi Melaka plak..makan asam pedas la aku esok.huh! nak buat camne,kan? bak kata pelayar kebanggaan negara tuh, "I never complaint..." hmm...never complaint ek? kenape ek? ah...ngarut lak aku ni...jangan banyak bagi alasan dalam hidup coz itu bukan ciri orang yang berjaya. orang lemah mencari alasan, yang hebat mencari jawapan jika berlaku kesulitan.kalut yang menyebabkan kegagalan berpunca daripada diri sendiri. ingin mencari jawapan dalam kekalutan, akhirnya diri sendiri yang gagal...

~SM Methodist needs urgent repairs

SUNGAI SIPUT: SM Methodist here may be among the top three schools in the state but its facilities are in a deplorable state.
Parts of the 75-year-old school, the first English school here, need urgent repairs while furniture in the classrooms and teachers’ rooms have to be refurbished.
School principal Lee Hah said there are not enough classrooms for the single-session school's 728 students.
There are 22 classrooms but students in four classes have no permanent classrooms, he said.
“We need a new block to cater to the increasing number of students,” he told Works Minister Datuk Seri S. Samy Vellu, who visited the school recently.
“There is also a need to replace the computer laboratory, library, mathematics room and teachers’ room,” he added.
Lee said he hoped the Education Ministry would look into allocating funds to upgrade the school’s facilities.
“The school deserves to be given an allocation based on our good record in the UPSR and the SPM examinations,” he said.
He said SM Methodist was among the top three schools in the state, after the Malay College and SM Raja Perempuan Kalsom in Kuala Kangsar.
Samy Vellu pledged to help raise some RM500,000 needed for repairs.
“It is difficult to get an allocation from the Government as the school needs a lot of repairs.
“I will try get some of my friends to donate to the school so that urgent repairs like the chemistry laboratory, ceiling, roofing and toilets can be carried out as soon as possible,” he added.

The Star

Tuesday May 24, 2005

~Ombak

ombak bisa melagukan
puisinya untukku
sedang aku minum bayu
ombak bisa faham
aku sedang sunyi
aku sedang sepi
ombak bisa bertahan
sedang aku
goyah di gigi lautan
ombak
terima kasih
aku mendamba jawaban...

~Bukit Keluang Beach
~31st May 2005

holiday it is...

in the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful.

well, it's been such a long time i forget to update my blog. hmm...today, i'm going back to my beloved hometown. perchance i can come back to KB as soon as possible...but seems like i have to wait for 3weeks before coming back here..really? nah! i might come back here next week if da family trip that we've planned is successful. i'm thinking of buying some stuff for my family. but, i'm running out of bucks!! argh!!pity me...

~a few days ago,(actually, yesterday...) we've just finished organizing a 'Majlis Konvokesyen' for our college..hmm..such an interesting event as we've to set up stalls for the comers.hmm...my stall? hey, we managed to sell ice-cream, burgers and beverages...not forgotten, FLOAT! (^_^) yummy!!!

ok! g't'go!! my bus is at 9.30 tonight. well...thinking of eating Nasi Ayam Claypot at KB Mall tonite....ought to save some bucks.
Daa!!

HaPpY HoLiDaY!!

~hmmm....

exam dah abess...
~elaun baru masuk!mari kita makan Pizza!!

hidup adalah perjuangan tanpa henti-henti. hanya aku yang bisa teruskannya sekalipun aku tahu ada bahaya menanti di hadapan, ada batu meluru dari belakang, ada tombak dilepaskan dari kiri dan kanan serta dari segenap kawasan. hidup adalah berjuang, tiada masa untuk aku berfoya-foya, tiada masa untuk menghabiskan masa dengan sia-sia... aku adalah pejuang dan akan terus berjuang selagi terdaya berjuang.

~syukur...

aku mengalah.
aku sedar bahawa yang patah akan tumbuh
yang hilang boleh dicari ganti.
tapi hati yang patah tidak boleh diubati
hanya meminta untuk diberi yang baru dan wangi.
aku sedar
aku mengalah
aku dah kalah...

selamat menghadapi peperiksaan!!

~dan mungkin bila nanti

~life must go on. Despite of having difficulties in the past few weeks, I realise that I have to set a goal to attain in my life. I've been circling in one place for such a long time and I feel that this is the time I have to make some changes in my life. I'm not going to swing birch tree like what Robert Frost did in his poem, the Birches. I'm thinking of going somewhere else where I can feel the calmness and peace rather than having the mood of solemnity here. I'm tired of thinking my unsolved problems and I've decided not to turn back....

"Hidup mesti terus...Hidup adalah berjuang."

::dah x macam dulu::

~SeLaMaT MeNyAmBuT MaUlIdUrRaSuL...
~hati aku tergerak untuk jumpe dia. aku x sanggup tgk die mcm tu. baru2 ni, nampak kat kbmall pun aku tak tego. bukan benci, tapi malu + segan nak tegur dia... ntah la...dah salah aku.
hmm...xtau nak buat camne lagi ni. yg penting, aku dh xnk bersama dia lagi. cuma kalau aku diberi kekuatan untuk berjumpa dan bercakap dengan dia, aku akan cakap.... ;-/

Ya, Allah. Kurniakanlah kekuatan kepadaku dan dia untuk terus menghadapi hari-hari mendatang....Aminn...

...holiday?

~dia dah balik...aku dah malas nak mcal, msg apatah lagi. aku bukan benci dia, tapi sekadar cuba untuk melupakan sebuah 'persembahan dari surga' yang cukup indah itu. maafkan aku. aku bukan benci, tapi aku cuba sekuat-kuat hati aku untuk melupainya dan sekadar menerima apa yang telah terjadi.

~exam dah dekat. campur tolak, ada la kurang lebih dua minggu sebelum exam. tak tau la mcm ner aku nyer perfomance utk exam kali ni. preparation dah buat (yer ke??) tapi, still aku x rasa confident untuk masuk exam hall tuh ;-) harap2 aku bleh buat yg terbaik...

~nak balik umah hari ni. esok cuti maulud... haha... 1st time x hantar saper2 biler balik... :-(

>>thanks God I'm alive...

>>hadapi dengan senyuman, semua yang terjadi, biar terjadi...

::terima kasih::

"maybe you can find a better person than her..."

itulah msg yg aku terima malam tadi. mungkin sekadar untuk 'memujuk' hati aku yang patah ni. terima kasih. sekurang2nye aku sedar, x semua yang aku nak, itu yang akan aku dapat. xsemua yang aku fikir betul itu, betul. xsemua yg aku fikir salah itu salah...aku bgtau kat panJe malam tadi. pastu aku msg ka'Are_gee. bgtau apa yang berlaku beberapa hari lepas...hmm...betul aku perlu abaikan dan 'busy'kan diri aku utk buat benda lain.daripada pikir benda2 yang menyedihkan ini. perghh...malam tadi aku mmg blurrrrr....aku xtau nk cakap dgn sape. last2, terkeluar jugak pada panJe. Hah! dah la...tutup buku pasal benda ni...biler hati aku terbuka, ketika itu aku telah tiada di sini.itu harapanku...

malas dah aku nak pikir pasal benda ni. aku pn dah letih 'menipu' dier. dah la tu ek...kalau ada jodoh, ada la. kalau xde, xkan nk paksa2 lak, kan?

p/s: tanx panJe, ka'Are_gee...

~Still I'm Sure We'll Love Again

There was a piano
We use to play
And spend the time
'Til we found it was love
Hidding inside us
Can not separate us
There's a flame of love
Searching in the dark
It's there to guide us
But through the days beyond the haze
I can see you reaching out to hold me

Still I'm sure we'll love again
It's a matter of time
I will belong to you,
You belong to me
How can I convince you girl
That I'm stuck on you
Can't find another heart
I love you more each day (I love you more each day...)
Never though never cross my mind
You gave everything
You ask me just holding on
If I could just walk away
To love again with somebody new
Too many memories
Release the passion inside
And set them free
But through the days beyond the haze
I can see you reaching out to hold me

...akhirnya

She.

You know it's too late,
to bring back all my faith.. in you.
You know it's too far away,
to bring back all the past ... today.

It's all in my head.

I care for u,
I'm needing you,
i care for u..

(daily flavoured tunes)

~inilah yang aku takutkan selama ini. Pada masa yang sepatutnya aku cakap, aku diam. bila aku patut diam, aku melatah di khalayak. Aku khayal dalam dunia ciptaanku sendiri. Aku sepatutnya berlari, namun aku sekadar bertatih untuk mengejar. Akhirnya, aku sendiri yang membodohkan diri. Menyesal? sudah pasti. Aku tidak perlu menyalahkan takdir, kerana terang-terang kelihatan salah diri ini. Maafkan aku. Ketakutan ini aku tidak cuba hindari, bahaya ini dengan sengaja aku hampiri. Kini, perahu sudah putus tali, kata-kata terlepas mematahkan hati. Aku mengecewakan insan yang menaruh hati...pada hati yang tidak suci ini.

~hmm...

.....Arghhh!!!!!!

nasihat aku: betulkan yang biasa, biasakan yang betul...

::I will never complain::

~huh! what a damn shit thing had happend in this world.
I should keep my mouth shut since the 1st day I arrive here.
I've been talking too much and I thing that this is the time for me
to keep my mouth in a 'safe-mode' condition....
why?
never ask me question like that...I won't answer it.
well...whatever the odds, I've to climb to the top, rite?
I'll never complain again.
I'll accept every obstacle as a challenge for me...
or,
as a test from God The Almighty to a slave like me.

::yang dekat::

~i can't stand like this anymore...
seems like i'm cheating someone (really?) huh!
i dunno who actually in my mind,
and who's stolen my heart...
hahaha...gotta think about this matter carefully.
dun want to make a stupid decision anymore.
perhaps, i will find someone...for what?
dunno....
~biler dekat, lain...biler jauh, lain...

::h m m . . .::

~someone msg me dis morning telling me dat she has lost her purse.
it's happend when she's on the bus...hmm...dunno how.
i'm thinking of making a phone call 2nite...
hmm...but my credit is running out...
~well, my xm is just around da corner.
preparation = nil!!!
hahaha...i don't want to repeat the xm.
hei...cant say why i lost my strength and mood 2 study...

::abp-bh 2004::

~CONGRATZ to Siti Nurhaliza...berjaya merampas kembali takhta sebagai Bintang Paling Popular. Even though dier x sempat sampai ke Arena of Stars, dier dh rakamkan ucapan die dari London before her concert at Albert Hall, London...duhh....
~aku sempat tengok pun start drpd Anugerah Khas.Ada kelas Mr Su lak tadi...hehehe....
~yang penting, aku sempat tgk Kembara performs....

::mirai e...::

Kiroro - Mirai e

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Haha ga kureta takusan no yasashisa
Ai wo idaite ayumeto kurikaeshita
Ano toki wa mada osanakute imi nado shiranai
Sonna watashi no te wo nigiri
Isshoni ayundekita

Yume wa itsumo sora takaku aru kara
Todokanakute kowai ne dakedo oitsuzukeru no
Jibun no story dakara koso akirametakunai
Fuan ni naruto te wo nigiri
Isshoni ayundekita

Sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai
Mirai e mukatte
Yukkuri to aruite yukou

::huhu..payah giler nak cari lirik ni. betul ke ni yang aku nak, aku pun xtau. aku tak tanya pun sape2 pasal lirik ni..kalau betul...betul la. kalau salah...Junjung titah patik harap diampun..::

::dalam kabut::

kabut
buat aku kalut
mataku berair dikala serabut.
mindaku bersabut
dahiku kerut
mula merungut.

kabut
buat aku ribut
dan tambah kalut
dan tambah kalut
aku bersungut
bahu tersenggut-senggut.

kabut
aku makin kalut
dalam kabut.

~kota bharoe,
~4.15 pm
~1 april `05

::G E G A R!!!::

Malaysia bergegar lagi. Berikutan satu gempa bumi berukuran 8.5 skala ritcher di Laut Andaman. Ini yang kedua selepas 26 Disember 2004 yang lalu (9.0 skala ritcher). Satu semenanjung bergegar, seluruh warganegara (termasuk PATI) menyelamatkan diri. Aku dan kawan2 kat Kelantam ni pun boleh merasai gegarannya. Petanda Kuasa Yang Maha Esa. Tidak perlu nafikan kerana memang kuasaNya tiada saingannya. Bersyukur aku kerana keluarga aku ok (even though my mom still feel afraid). huhu...aku tidur pukul5 sebab nak tunggu breaking news dalam tv sambil melayari Internet mencari latest news pasal gempa kat Sumatera tu (thanks to Loh, Yus and Lee). Alhamdulillah, sehingga blog ini ditulis, aku xdengar lagi ada Tsunami...

::ampunkan patik, tuanku(ng)....::

26 Mac - tarikh ni aku patut berada di bumi diraja Kuala Kangsar. menyambut perayaan 100 tahun Koleq yang aku sayangi dan cintai. Namun, aku gagahkan juga diri ini untuk tidak menghadirinya atas satu faktor yang langsung tak masuk akal. Istiadat Mengarak Panji² Sultan Kelantam yang menyakitkan hati....ye lah. Bukan apa, rasa tension sebab hari tu hujan (bukan marah kat kejadian tuhan yang Maha Esa ni) tapi, rasa macam seluruh warganegara Kelantan sudah menunjukkan rasa taat setia kepada al-Sultam tapi...Sultam tak muncul². "Hujan kan kuasa Allah, ni baru Dia nak tunjuk sikit jer...nasib baik tak dibanjirkan Kelantan ari ni." member aku cakap. so, aku terpaksa berbasah lenjun dalam baju batik aku. Patutnya aku leh tengok gajah² mengarak masyarakat atasan, akhirnya aku hanya tengok gambar dalam news and paper in the following day....huhu :-)

::an extraordinary girl::

~in the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful

sejak keputusan SPM 2004 diumumkan dan Nur Amalina menjadi pelajar terbaik SPM dengan merangkul 17A1, media dan masyarakat mula menjadikannya sebagai idola. bukan aku dengki dengan kejayaannya. aku berbangga dengan kejayaannya ini, namun janganlah Nur Amalina ni jadi macam seorang budak 'genius' yang pernah dipaparkan kehebatannya di akhbar pada awal '80-an. nak dijadikan cerita, budak ni (bleh baca sejak 3 tahun kut...) sekarang ni keje jual burger jer. b4 dat, dia ditangkap menagih dadah (Astargfirullahalazim...) harap2nya Nur Amalina yang sedia bagus ini akan terus bagus. masyarakat telah memandangnya dengan tinggi, so she has to proove that she is the best! Pesanan aku; "kau sedang berada di pucuk yang lembut, kena jaga elok-elok.kalau kasr-kasar, nanti pucuk tu patah, kau akan jatuh"

kepada yang nak success mcm Amalina nih, yang penting jangan cepat putus asa dan putus harap. Tuhan tidak akan mengubah nasib hambaNya yang tak mahu berubah :-)

::congratz to all my fellow juniors (spm cand. 2004)::
::Never give up!!::

::mengantuk......::

sajer nk tulis even though mata rasa berat n nak tido...huhuhu

::mangsa perang::

ada ke patut budak tu langgar aku masa tgh nak amik bola tuh? memang 'meletup' lutut aku masa tuh....rasa macam nak tibai balik jer. tapi, aku sendiri dah terlantar di tepi padang masa tu. keputusannya, kitorang menang gak 2-1 (Alhamdulillah...) memang bengang rasa kepala, bengkak hati woo... nasib baik doc kata minor injury. tak payah susah-susah nak X-Ray. huhu...1st time aku cedera sebegini teruk.main hoki pun tak camni. main handball lak yg kena hentam dengan orang. apa-apapun, aku puas hati dengan game aku. aku juga berpuas hati dengan prestasi team tahun ni...huhu... k lah. apa-apapun, aku puas hati gak sebab aku sempat siapkan aku nyer assignment dan hantar pd Mr Suthagar on time.

p/s: aku terpaksa 'bercuti' selama sebulan untuk pastikan kaki aku recover sepenuhnya daripada kecederaan. kalau aku main dan injured sekali lagi...say bye bye je la pada padang.

esok la...

"esok la..."
"ada apa dengan esok?"
"ada KAGUM Bola Baling"
"kat ner?"
"sini la"
"abis tu?"
"tensen..."
"apa nak tensen?"
"assignment kena anto 9 haribulan..."
"haha.."
"nyesal aku...buat keje last minute"
"apsal tak buat awal-awal?"
"nak buat camner...'office' aku bukak 12 midnight ke atas"
"naper lambat sangat"
"bising dalam bilik ni"
"boring xde tahap gler ahh...."
"hehuhehuhehuhehuhehu..."

Premier schools to set standard

KUALA LUMPUR: The Education Ministry wants premier schools to be the benchmark for secondary schools nationwide.
Education Minister Datuk Seri Hishammuddin Tun Hussein said as centres of excellence, the schools would be models for all secondary schools in line with the objective to establish a world-class education system.
The ministry, he said, would also introduce several methods to achieve this objective, including creating healthy competition among the premier schools, not only in the area of academics but also in sports and other co-curricular activities.
“With competition, I am sure that we can improve the status of the schools,” he said in a statement.
The premier schools' excellence, he added, should be shared with secondary schools in the rural areas.
Hishammuddin said the ministry would assist premier schools in establishing linkages with reputable schools overseas to enable the school administrations, teachers and students to share their experiences.
When met at the centenary celebrations of St John's Institution yesterday, the minister also said schools nationwide would be supported with allocations, teachers and infrastructure.
He added that it was important to support schools with long histories and excellent track records such as St John's, Convent Bukit Nanas and the Malay College Kuala Kangsar so that their traditions would carry on and these schools would continue to be a benchmark for other schools around the country.

bosan...

minggu yang membosankan dan menyakitkan hati. terlalu banyak yang aku perlu buat sampai aku sendiri tak tahu nak mulakan dari mana. cuti dah dekat, assignment pulak makin menggunung. entahlah, sempat ke aku siapkan assignment aku ni. date of submission is on this wednesday. oh God! can I make it before time? 8 Mac ada KAGUM Bola Baling. main kt tempat aku...hoho..welcome to our beloved KBTC..the one and only in Malaysia. "dah lama dah..." boleh ke aku main lagi? kaki dah ler injured masa main hoki arituh. hmm...bosan dan hampa. hampa kerana aku terpaksa menjadi hamba kepada mereka yang raja-raja di luar sana...

p/s: "kuyakinkan restu bumi..."

CRICKET: Fifth straight title for Anderson

SEKOLAH Menengah Anderson Ipoh won the Perak under-18 cricket title for the fifth consecutive year in Ipoh.
The premier school beat Malay College Kuala Kangsar by 67 runs. Anderson scored 140 runs for two in 20 overs while Malay College were all out for 73 runs for three in 20 overs in the four-day competition which concluded on Saturday.Third was Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman (STAR), who beat Sekolah Menengah Saint Michael by nine wickets.In the under-12 category, Kerian district edged Manjong by two wickets. Manjong were 70 for seven in 15 overs but Kerian passed the score with four balls to spare to take the title.Larut Matang and Selama beat Kuala Kangsar by two wickets to take third place

www.nst.com.my

::prakata::

in the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful...

hmmm....letih gler rasa this week. baru jer menamatkan satu pertandingan hoki KAGUM zon Timur. perghh...tatau nak cakap camner. tp mmg meletihkan. dh lama tak main. last main masa MSSPK daerah...tu pun masa Form V. pastu, jd coach bdk F1. for the first time, aku amik posisi bek. huhu...klakar gak. slama ni dihimpit dengan span2 yg besar dan berat. jadi gk jer dulu... tetiba rasa nk main bek. coach pn kata ok. so, aku main la.by the way, x der luck, kitorg pun bungkus je la... (-.-)

::rohtea::