dUa puLuh 5 diseMBeR

"hi,awk.."
"Hi..."
"hmm..."
"nape? xsehat?"
"sehat"
"takut?"
"tak..."
"abes tu?"
"um...ntah la..."
"i dreamed bout u last nite"
"really???"
"yess.."
"apa saya buat dlm mmp awk??"
"...and you're wearing yr favorite baju melayu"
"umm...wut bout u?"
"i'm wearing my baju kurung wif da same colour like you..."
"hmm...it's just a dream"
"yeah..it's a dream..."


[a dream that will never happen....]

-oNe-

dibelakangkudibelenggu

kini hanya matatelingajiwa yang ada
lain sudah dikebumi seadanya
karena mati mereka sakit sentiasa
harapkan sakti gagal tawarkan bisa
ku ingin kita bersama selamanya
namun apakan daya masa tiada
namun apakan daya kudrat sekelumit cuma
namun apakan daya aku manusia biasa
yang hanya akan curahkan ilmu di dada
untuk membasahkan minda anak bangsa
dengan segala macam bahan baca dan kira
dengan segala macam bahan alam dan manusia

benarkan aku meneruskan perjalanan
kerana di depanku masih belantara hutan
di depanmu adalah masa hadapan.

26 Disember 2006
11.34 pm

PADI - TERNYATA CINTA

Ingin sungguh aku bicara
Satu kali saja
Sebagai ungkapan kata... perasaanmu padaku

Telah cukup lama kudiam...
didalam keheningan ini
Kubekukan di bibirku
Tak berdayanya tubuhku

Dan ternyata cinta yang menguatkan aku
Dan ternyata cinta... (tulus mendekap jiwaku)

Kau yang sungguh selalu setia
Menemani kesepianku
Menjaga lelap tidurku
Membasuhku setulusnya

Merekahnya fajar hatiku
Menghangatkan luruhku
Dan resapkan keharuman
Engkau yang mencintaiku

Acha Septriasa - Sampai Menutup Mata

embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau asa
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

reff: aku tak mudah mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku sampai ku menutup mata

oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
berikanlah aku hidup
takkan ku sakiti dia
hukum aku bila terjadi

Tuan Puteri

duduk diam macam kera di hutan kelaparan
tunggu seorang putera turun dari kayangan,
tapi jangan sesekali kau sesalkan
jika kau tidak peroleh apa dihajatkan,
kerana usahamu tiada kelihatan
hanya ada bayangan dan angan-angan,
serta mimpi indah yang tidak berkesudahan.

bangunlah tuan puteri rupawan,
puteramu tidakkan kelihatan,
jika ianya hanya sekadar khayalan.

6 Disember 2006
12.54 am

Di mana dia?

terolang oleng dia menurut
alunan ombak
kejap ke kiri
kejap ke kanan
ada kala dia angguk,
angguk dan angguk lagi,
ada kala dia geleng,
geleng dan geleng lagi.
meleng kepalanya kala
gerabak membelok senyap
angguk dan geleng dia
angguk dan angguk lagi
geleng dan geleng lagi.
terlihat air di pinggir bibirnya
mengalir tanpa hirau
menitis tanpa risau
dan dia kesat tanpa hirau.
henti gerabak
kepalanya dongak
mujurlah ada si kecil,
kejutkan ayah dari katil.

21 november 06
2.00 am
Stsn Kereta Api Ipoh

Tanpa arah

Penat mencari diri
menerobos angkasaraya,
mati.
neon silaukan mata,
mentari jingga aman dirasa,
hidup.
bayu lembut menyapa pipi,
pendingin hawa bekukan minda,
kosong.
seakan faham
atap rumbia kusemat
semalam
benarkan
benarkan hujan mandikannya
benarkan
benarkan aku lena dalam
dakapan dingin malam

1:29 a.m
stesen keretaapi Ipoh
21 November 06

And now

Oh my,
Life is not as beautiful as before.
As friends come and go,
Without noticing me
who is just a bystander.

Oh my,
Life is harder than before,
As friends are no longer friends,
Because enemies are conquering ‘em.
Because enemies are conquering ‘em.

Oh my,
Lord only the one who understand
Coz he is the only One,
He means no harm
If he’s testing me
As I’m a slave
Throughout my whole life
And I’ll serve to Him
And I’ll obey Him
As I’m His.


Sunday
October 1, 2006

A friend and a friend

If I could be a friend,why don’t you try be one?
I’ve tried my best to be your friend,
But it ends up with the kind I hate most.

As I’m not charming
As I’m not gorgeous,
As I’m not someone cheerful,
As now I’ve lost my smiles.
So, I can’t be your friend anymore?

I asked myself from dusk till dawn
What the hell I’ve done to you?
Yes, of course that you’ll say that
I’m emotional,
I’m bad-tempered.
Am I?

I laugh to the trees,
I talk to the stones,
Seems better than talking to you.
You feel like you know me,
But sincerely,
I have to tell you,
Get out from my life,
I don’t need you anymore
Why, you don’t understand me
As you never try to be one.

I understand you
Now I’m tired of doing it
Now, it ends up the way I hate most

Sunday, October 1st 2006

FRIEND

We are still friends
But are we?
You lie to me,
You betray my trust,
I’m being loyal to you,
But you remain unfaithful.

As it’s a lie
You don’t need to tell.
As it’s a lie,
No point to justify.

We are still friends,
But not like before
Anymore.

Monday,
October 09, 2006

What am I supposed to do?

Now, I’m miles away from you,
surrounded by the eyes of Hidatsa.
I feel scared and lonely,
I feel like I’m not meant to be here.

If I send a letter to you every hour,
I know it’s not enough for both of us
As through letters you only can see
the plain and motionless side of me.
As through letters I only can say, ‘Hi!’
and ends it with a ‘bye!’

Without knowing how well you are,
Without seeing through your silky eyes
I admit that I really miss you
I admit that I really want you to be here
as much as you need me there.

But, as I’m miles away from you,
I hope we are ready for meeting up,
Rather than playing hide-and-seek.

Monday
October 2, 2006

Ramadhan

Rasanya macam semalam baru berpisah
akan tetaplah kita ditemukan saban tahun
memadailah dengan masa sebulan yang panjang
andai dipendekkan lagi entah bagaimana agaknya kerinduanku
dari masa ke masa ku menunggu mu
hari-hari yang berlalu ku hitung penuh sabar
aku mengharap pertemuan yang kali ini bukan yang terakhir
namun, kurelakan jua jika itu takdirNya.

1st Ramadhan 1427
24th September 2006
myRoom
7.46 pm

tuli

acapkali dilaungkan suara rakyat
rancak bertempik sorak
mengutuk serangan bertali arus
mengecam segala bentuk ragam ancaman
aneka tuntutan sudah dibuat
pelbagai bantahan disuarakan
namun, tuli belaka mereka.

di mana tombak untuk kita menyerang?
di mana pedang gunanya untuk menentang?
di mana perisai tatkala kita mahu bertahan?

di bumi saudara kita,
hujan yang biasa menyirami bumi
buat manusia menyukuri
sudah bertukar wajah
hanya hujan air mata darah
jadi pengganti.

di bumi saudara kita,
tiada lagi percikan bunga api,
yang tinggal hanyalah
mimpi buruk igauan ngeri
di siang hari.

a friend and a chocolate bar

a friend
is just like
a chocolate bar.
sometimes,
a chocolate bar
is just
a chocolate bar.
unless,
you add something else
in it.
but still,
it is a chocolate bar
with
something else
in it.

fw: to my friends..

kosong

apakah aku sedang bermimpi
tatkala aku sedar namun mata tertutup?
di manakan kucari sebuah puisi
bisa mentakrifkan sebuah cinta?
kosong jiwa kurasakan,
cemburu mataku melulu.
benarkan aku pergi
biarkan aku sendiri
biarkan aku menyepi.
biarkan aku hilangkan
titik-titik hitam di kalbuku,
sebelum aku bisa benarkan
kau menemuiku.

the thinking statue

he is and will always be there,
men can't move him,
wind can't lift him (up),
inside his mind
noone can read
noone can predict.
as his mind is boggling
with some kind of inevitable complexity.
noone can see (through) his mind,
noone can guess what's there in his mind.
he just sit there politely
he just sit there silently.
and makes others start to think,
what he is thinking eversince.

July 15,2006
1012 hrs

cinta Lando

(diilhamkan dari Filem Ungu Violet)

andai aku benar-benar bercinta
aku tidak akan alpa
karena diriku sudah tiada makna
untuk terus berada di dunia
benarkan ia berakhir di sini
sebelum kita terlalu ke hadapan
sehingga lupakan apa yang perlu
didahulukan.
benarkan aku pergi,
kita tidak sepatutnya bercinta
aku tak selayaknya memberi
pengakuan cinta

tiada tajuk

kenapa dulu senang
sedangkan sekarang jadi susah?
padahal kesenangan yang kukecapi selama ini
atas usahaku sendiri.
dalam gelap aku sendiri
dalam ramai aku sepi.
aku biarkan segalanya kembali
menerobos ruang kecil mindaku.

Detik

Detik

Pantasnya ia berlari meninggalkan kita,

Jarang sekali kita sedar kerana alpa,

Daya dan kudrat kita tiada mampu mengejarnya.

Sekalipun dipacu kereta enam belas roda,

Sekalipun dihambat ratusan ekor kuda,

Sekalipun dicipta mesin perentas masa,

Tidaklah mampu dikejar ia.

Kepantasannya tiada tandingan,

Ia tidak mengejar, tapi kita dikejar,

Ia sentiasa cukup, cuma kita kekurangannya,

Ia sentiasa berlalu dalam jaga tidak kita sedari.

Ia sentiasa ada, tidak dinampak bukan kerana buta.

22 Apr -06
myHome

Kutakrifkan keseksian

Langkah rapinya laju
Jinjang kakinya diraba angin lalu
Kain sempit dan pendek pilihannya
Buatkan tangan buaya
tak sipu-sipu menyapa
buatkan jantung buaya
tiada segan silu rancak berirama
di sebalik kain kecil
selimut tubuhnya
pastinya tersimpan rahsia
bukan satu tapi seribu.

Pandangan kualihkan ke utara dan selatan
Ke timur kemudian barat
Kucari dari rumpun yang sama
Kucari dari kabilah yang serupa.

Kucari yang punya kesopanan
mengalahkan keseksian
kucari yang suaranya sudah membuatku
kerinduan
kucari yang raut wajahnya bisa memberiku
ketenangan
kucari yang sederhana perlikunya tetap
menarik perhatian

Namun tiadalah mahu kutakrifkan keseksian
Kerana mataku kehitaman,
matamu mungkin kebiruan
(apakah mungkin aku keterlaluan?)

15 May 2006
Monday
myHome

hingga ke ujung waktu...

ada apa dengan dirimu sehingga aku menunggu kesekian waktu,
habis mentari menyinari siang hari, diganti bulan sehingga dinihari,
aku cekal menantimu ke ujung waktu.
namun aku tahu kita ibarat taman bunga yang dibina di dua persimpangan berlainan,
tidak kan bertemu biarpun sering seiringan dan berdampingan,
sekalian khalayak mungkin ada kesamaan, namun perasaan hanya khayalan.
terima kasih teman, kerana menghargaiku dan persahabatan kita,
karena pilihan dibuat oleh naluri gerak hatimu, aku doakan agar kau bahagia.

May 10, 2006
myHome..

stand by me

Alone i'm sitting in the dark chamber,
doing nothing but only sitting,
waiting for long but noone ever pay a visit.
i can't even count the day and month,
might be i'm here for years.
i'm sad, i'm so sad.
i've been forgotten by those
who used to love me,

suddenly you come to me from nowhere,
like an angel from the heaven,
you stand by me with a candle on your right,
and a plate of care and a glass of love on your left.
i try to stand and hold your hand,
but then, you disappeared and the room
is in the darkness again.

i wait again,
when it would be the time for you
to stand by me again?

April 26, 2006

PUT YOUR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER -Paul Anka

Put your head on my shoulder,
Hold me in your arms, baby
Squeeze me oh so tight , baby
Show me that you love me too.
Put your lips close to mine, dear,
Won't you kiss me once, baby?

Just a kiss goodnight, baby
Maybe you and I will fall in love.
People say love's a game
A game you just can't win.
If there's a way, I'll find it someday,
And then this fool will rush in,

Put your head on my shoulder,
Hold me in your arms, ba--by
Squeeze me oh so tight, show me.
Put your head on my shoulder.

empty

empty box is emptied
with empty papers,
and empty box is placed
in an empty room.
the empty room
is in an empty house,
and the empty house
is the only empty house
in a village called,
Empty Ville.

and now,
the empty house
is empty again
because the owner
has empty mind.

hari minggu yang boring

bertanya khabar pada mentari yang menyinar,
bersalaman dengan dedaunan hijau pohon bunga,
berbual mesra dengan orkid, kertas dan raya,
bersiram dengan rumput di laman,
bersantap dengan kucing mengiau berlegar di kain.

kereta diam membisu,
basikal duduk kaku,
motorsikal tayarnya batu,
kereta tolak ketawa terpaku.

surat khabar membaca berita,
sedih tawa, riang duka.
perang aman, damai berontak.
drama kehidupan di televisyen,
temanya cinta, cinta, dan cinta.
juruhebah menyorok dalam radio,
dengan irama dan lagu dari seberang.

monday,10 april 2006
myHome

Kiblat

tegak berdiri menghadap satu kiblat,
entah benar entah tidak,
tiada siapa ambil peduli.
asal yang tegak berdiri rasa benar,
benarlah ia, jika salah maka salahlah.
kadang kala dahinya dihala ke utara
dan kadang kala malunya tunjuk ke timur.
kadang kala telunjuknya mahu ke selatan
sedangkan kelingkingnya ingin ke barat.

tegak berdiri menghadap satu kiblat,
namun anggota tiada pernah sepakat.

april,08 2006
saturday

holiday (ii)

it's holiday again
and it's longer than before.
never been a 3-months holiday
in my life
thus this is my first time ever.

sitting on benches in front of my house,
i've started to think,
how am i going to finish it
as it has already started?

Bharat :-)

hamparan hijau daun-daun teh
menggamit jiwa saujana
mata memandang.
deruan enjin mesin
menyapa kutip segala
hijauan yang tua.
bayu sejuk membelai pipiku
memberi satu aroma
dan rasa yang enak.
sendiri, kuhirup sedikit
secangkir teh strawberi
bernilai cuma sekeping
not biru.
sendiri, ku melangut mengadap
sebukit daun teh
yang belum lagi sedia dipetik.

25th March 2006
Daniel's Lodge
Cameron Highland

words for (your) father

though we're not close
like a father and a son,
though i only met you twice
still i can recognize you.
you are strong
and of course, not weak.
you can beat your tiredness
you can beat your weaknesses.
but, today
you're fighting with something
that even I can't give my hands
to wake you up.

you impress me with your strength
you boost up my confidence
with your strength
you motivate me with your strength
you make me realize the importance
of being myself
also with your strength

i'm only a son of someone else
but spending my little time with you
i feel like you are the someone else.
i don't know what makes me feel like that
but perhaps,
a love of me
lessen a pain of you

~::dedicated to a father whom I admire his strength and determination...

~::put your head on my shoulder::~

put your head on my shoulder
put your head on my shoulder
so you can cry
so you can cry
i love you
la..la..la....

put your head on my shoulder
put my head on your shoulder
so i can cry
so you cry
we love each other
la..la..la...

an evening in a cyber cafe

welcome to Multimedia Cyber Cafe
have a sit in front the selected computer
sit properly and strictly no pornography
website allowed.
switch on the lamp
switch on the air cond
don't shut down your PC
don't restart it as it is yours.
play well until you are cold enough
go to the rest room
not for tea, but for pee.

balik kampung

tambang bas:-
KBTC ke Kota Bharoe : RM 1.20
Kota Bharoe ke Kuala Besut : RM 4.60
Semerak ke Kota Bharoe: RM 4.10
Kota Bharoe ke KBTC : RM 1.20

sekian, terima kasih

Lifehouse - B L I N D

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this timeI never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go
After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know

A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

elang

kerana aku
hadir tiba-tiba;
benarkan aku
pergi bukan sediakala.

Papan langit Permaidani cinta

*Puisi ini sempena anniversary 9903
25 Januari 2006

Kita tulis pada papan langit yang sama,
Kita lukis pada permaidani cinta serupa,
Dan kita mimpi cita yang tiada beza.
Berlalu sudah purnama yang lima,
Segala masih seakan sama,
Berkurang tiada bertambah cuma.
Kerana jika langitku tangiskan hujan,
Langitmu muntahkan salji.
Jika permaidaniku hijau khatulistiwa,
Permaidanimu jingga tropika.
Dan jika mimpiku Hang Tuah sang Laksamana,
Mimpimu Cheng Ho perentas antara benua.

Sudah kita rentasi purnama yang lima,
Senang susahnya di jiwa kita tersematnya.
sudah kita redahi purnama yang lima,
bertambah sehelai not merah cuma,
harga diri kita di mata dunia.

Hazwan Hamdan
26 12 2005

red rose yellow rose

I know I ain't red
I'm just yellow
don't deny it
i'm always in the know.

hoping me to be red
still I'm yellow
feel that red should be red
and still me gonna be yellow
for me, red is inside your heart
for me, yellow is beside your heart.

sorry my dear sweetie
I can't be your red
as I' glad to be eternally yellow
in your eyes in your mind
beside your heart.

allow me

allow me to plea
to prove i aint guilty
it's hard to be me,
seems no good to nobody.
believe in me,
so do everybody
perhaps you can see
the different side of me.
lay down a tree
with the buzz of bee,
don't know why everybody
seek the dark side of me.

allow me to plea
for the sake of everybody
stop looking for me
the darkside of me.