Saturday, December 15, 2007

Allah knows best!

Allah knows what the best is for us
So, why should we complain
We always want the sun shines
But, He knows there will be rain

We always want the laughter
And the moment of cheer
But our heart will lose their tenderness
If we never shed a tear…

Allah tests us often
With sufferings and with sorrows
He tests us not to punish us
But to help us meet tomorrow

Allah tests us often
And every pain he gives to us
Provide us with patience
Is followed by rich gain
So, whenever we feel down
And we feel that everything is going wrong
It is just Allah’s way
To make our spirit strong

My friend,
Remember this…
Allah knows best!

ada band : Nyawa Hidupku

angin malam berhembus
lirih dingin menyapa
coba merasakan
semilir kehadiranmu

Tuhan kutanya cinta
kemana arah dan tujuannya
bila memang berpisah
mengapa maut yg pisahkan

aku memujimu hingga jauh
terdengar syahdu ke angkasa
rintihan hatiku memanggilmu
dapatkah kau mendengar
nyawa hidupku

runtuh jiwa ragaku
hancur berkeping-keping
tangan dan kaki tiada
berpijak di bumi lagi

kau menelanjangi diriku selalu
lewat indahnya peluk kasih
merangkul kalbu yg membelenggu
dan kini tinggalkanku

Monday, December 10, 2007

Internationalization to Singapore #Day 1

09 Des~

2300 - Departed frm Cendana RC
2330 - Departed frm Cemara-Akasia RC

10 Des~
0100 - 0146 - @ ayer keroh RnR
0500 - arrived @ Masjid Sultan Abu Bakr,JB
0700 - having bfast @ Larkin Bus Terminal
0850 - taking another Bus to causeway~
1000 - 1100 - passport + customs inspection
1130 - arrived @ Summmmmmers Tavern, Carpenters St~

next?? haha...wait 4 nx uploading^^

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Result:Part 3/2007

++owh,my! ive tried and listed below is my result for last sem..hmm..hope i can do better nx sem (perhaps?)


BEL420 REPORT WRITING A

BMD401 MANDARIN LANGUAGE I A-

EDU550 EDUCATIONAL PSYCHOLOGY B-

HBU111 NATIONAL KESATRIA I B-

TSL480 ORAL COMMUNICATION B+

TSL485 APPLIED PHONETICS AND PHONOLOGY C+

TSL520 TEACHING ENGLISH THROUGH DRAMA A-


GPA: 3.17
CGPA: 3.4

~gosh..da moment i saw '3.4', i suddenly become highly motivated+spirited to try harder nx sem. too many things to do at one time and FM are the X-factors that has badly affecting myself..hoi!!! wake up!!! it's no longer honeymoon year!!! hmm...no more hard luck, it's just LAZY!!

::08 des::
sect18,s.alam

Thursday, November 01, 2007

REJECTED Proposal

P/s: Reject = turn down,

snub, discard, throw out, repulse,

or do not accept the existence of someone and something in life


I have been working hard for the last two years

And the most important proposal of mine has been rejected

By my fierce looking kind-hearted editor.

I’d love to see her gets angry

As her growl is a smile, as her yell is a laugh.

She thought she has let me down, she felt sorry for that.

But I just turn back and walked slowly out of her Red room.

Though my face shows a smile, my heart still break into pieces

As this proposal is important, rejection is the end of everything

And rejection means I have to start all over again

Or I just can resign and work with another editor.


myRoom

Sunday 7, 2007

A day after being rejected

My word

I

God,

I’ve made my promise

I’ll let her go on with her life.

I don’t really understand

what is happening to us

Maybe we’re avoiding each other

Or it just that we’ve no chance

To put our eyes together

If I’m up here, you’ll be down there

If you’re inside here, I’ll be outside there.

II

God,

she might have made

The same promise too (for me)

When I see her with her man

I’d rather be delighted

Instead of being frustrated

Though face can lie

Though eyes can pretend

But sorry, my sacred heart can’t

III

God,

both of us know

We’re not meant for each other

So, I let go off my heart

With flow of blood it makes way

And my dam broke into pieces

Pouring down water in silence


TEC 2, UiTM Sec 17

Sept 28, 2007

Idle + mind = devils’ workshop

My job is not to think for you

As my brain is meant for me

You have yours to make use of

If not, just leave it to me.

I’m sure I can think better

But you guys will be greater.

As my head clink clunk alone

You have his, her, theirs and yours.

Then you will have plenty of thoughts

instead of one (or none).

You have to use your mind

Or it will become worthless

And if you never intellectually use it,

you have wasted His precious time.

Friend, I hope you will remember

That inactive, inoperative, unoccupied

and unused mind

is

the devils’ workshop

September 11, 2007

1408, Cendana RC

Merdekakah AKU?

Kebolehanku kian terbatas

Dek alpanya aku menurutiNya

Mencari cinta sejati di celahan

hati jutaan manusia lalai dan lupa

aku pasti aku takkan temui

walau sekelumit cuma


aku tak tahu apa yang terjadi

antara mudaku dan tuaku

kusangkakan mudaku bahagia

melagukan kebahagiaan tuaku

namun kini kelihatan seperti mimpi

aku tidak memiliki mudaku

hampir mustahil menghampiri tuaku


ku pernah bayangkan diriku

sehebat raja-raja di luar sana

yang sering melagukan pembangunan

yang selalu mendendangkan keamanan

tapi aku hanya sekadar hamba

dirantai kaki kanan ke kiri

digari tangan kanan ke kiri

agar melagukan pembangunan

dengan penuh kebencian

agar mendendangkan keamanan

yang tidak pernah kelihatan.

Mujurlah hidungku dicucuk tidak

Jika ya, lembu kerbaulah aku.

Merdekakah aku di tanah bertuah ini?

Jika aku dipaksa menurut segala?

Jika aku dikerah mengangkat senjata?

Jika aku dihantar meneroka ilmu luar negara?


Merdekalah aku

Semuanya tanggungjawabku

Kepada tanah tumpah darahku

Yang tercinta.


2 September 2007

Sunday

1/408, Cendana RC

Sang Pekerja

Laungan itu kedengaran lagi

Sayup di hening pagi kota

Laungan itu kedengaran lagi

Menyapa kita yang masih buta.

Tegas walaupun mendayu-dayu

Menyeru kita bangkit bersama

Namun kerana masih gelap; berbayu

Begitu saja, kita tinggal tugas pertama


Laungan itu kedengaran lagi

Dalam terik mentari kota

Laungan itu kedengaran lagi

Menyapa kita yang masih buta.

Datanglah sudah tugas seterusnya

Berehat sebentar bagi sang pekerja

Agar penat yang sekelumit hanya

hilang dan takkan datang semula.


Laungan itu kedengaran lagi

kita masih memandu kereta

Laungan itu kedengaran lagi

Menyapa kita yang kini buta.

Yang dua sudah ternyata lupa

Yang tiga, empat dan lima

Entah bagaimana kiranya?


August 14, 2007

1408, Kolej Cendana

31 ogos 2007 - Di Bawah Naungan

Di bawah naungan panji kemenangan

Ku perhatikan yang terang sang rembulan

Menyapa aku kesepian buat kesekian

seolah ia memahami sulitnya perasaan.

Sementelah aku disapa rembulan nan terang

Mataku singgah di sang saka baris-barisan

Panjinya diterang tiang serinya ditebang

Pergilah mereka hilanglah segala kesan.

Di bawah naungan panji kemenangan

Ku hilangkan segala kenangan menyeksakan

Ku padamkan semua harta kebajingan

Ku rabik segala jenis macam kuman.

Dan di bawah panji kemenangan

Yang memayungi ku

Yang menaungi ku

Ku seru agar ia kekal satu.

Ogos 31, 2007

1/408

Entah-entah

Benarkan aku terbang keluar dari daerah sepi ini

Hajatnya aku ingin menjejaki lautan ketenangan

Agar dapat ku basahkan tekakku dengan airnya yang dingin pilu

tiadalah aku pernah melangkah dari daerah sepi ini

mencari sekelumit hati yang saban hari kian mati

kerana yang ada di sini pun bisa buat ku geli hati.

Aku terbang bak orang muda

Laju hingga merempuh pokok kelapa

Terhantuk si kelapa tua.

Ah Zuan

September 21, 2007

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

we're walking awkwardly

we're walking awkwardly

towards the remaining lights.

shining at the edge of the world

distracting my eyes, disturbing my sight.

but i don't care, and i won't care enough

for the sake of human eyes,huh?

dude, i continue to laugh



Friday, August 17, 2007

aku dan negaraku

benarkan aku ratah sisa-sisa daging haramnya
agar jadi pengajaran anak bangsa masa depan
pejuang itu tidak pernah kenal tanahnya
dilaungkan semangat padahal tiada pengikutnya
hanya berjiwa nasionalis selepas makan nasi
hanya berjiwa patriotik selepas makan roti di parti.

benarkan kami calarkan jiwa dan hati si bangsat itu
ia hanya ada bangsa tetapi tiada jiwa
melangkah penuh rapat seolah soldadu zaman dahulu
erat memegang senapang sendiri di dalam seluar.
gagah memegang perisai diapit dua kaki

kita mungkin berbeza ayah dan ibu
kita mungkin berbeza yang disembah itu
namun kita hanya ada satu
tanah air yang sekian lama kita pertahankan
inilah negaraku,negaramu dan negara kita semua.
usah kita sia-siakannya
kelak tergadai menyesallah jua.
kesal sekelumit tiadalah guna.

-oNe-
-August 17,2007-
-m e r d e k a ! ! !-

Monday, August 13, 2007

malaysiaku...

Laungan semangat biar bertempat
usah berpencak jika menidak adat.
Laungan juang biar diselangi gendang
jangan diselangi tepuk tampar sepak tendang.

malaysiaku

bukan

negara

KUKU

malaysiaku

negara

AKu, Kau, dia

negara

kita semua..


"Malaysia hak KITA!"

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Song for You!

Without telling others you left the crowd
You make me feel like I have no heart.
If you really want to leave, you should think twice
So that I won’t feel like I’m an ant among the mice.
drifting yourself from me the day you let me break free.
Though I really want to hear, touch and see
the unusual color, odd voice and different side of me.
I lost neither my hope nor the world I can see
But then I realized this is more than trustworthy.

This is not the matter of both of us only
But it engaged with people around you and me.
We might look sometimes idiot, crazy occasionally
As if we’re leaving in the state of stupidity.
Like a fool you laughed at me sporadically
Like a fool I kicked you till you smashed a tree.

“The important is not to stop questioning…”

June 18, 2007
10.02pm
myHome

Pantun Anak Moden...

*Makluman: ini bukan berniat menghina pantun asli kerana yang asli masih dikekalkan. Penambahan dibuat kerana berpandangan pantun asli banyak tersirat maksudnya dari yang tersurat.

Dua tiga kucing berlari
dari pagi hingga tengah hari
mana nak sama si kucing belang
dengan si mata keranjang,
dua tiga boleh kucari
walau terpaksa dipanah mentari
mana kan sama cik adik seorang
yang bujang terang-tang-tang.

Pulau pandan jauh ke tengah
Berenang sampai termengah-mengah
Gunung daik bercabang tiga
Tempatnya bersih bak dijaga
Hancur badan dikandung tanah
Walau ribuan dicucuk panah
Budi yang baik dikenang juga
Walau sebesar biji saga.

Pucuk pauh delima batu
Pohon jauh hanya satu
Anak sembilang di tapak tangan
Jika disengat jadi kenangan
Walau jauh beribu batu
Ingatlah yang satu
Hilang di mata di hati jangan
Semoga hubungan berpanjangan.

Kalau ada sumur di ladang
Jangan lupa bawa pengadang
Bolehkah saya menumpang mandi
Kerana kau perempuan aku lelaki
Kalau ada umur yang panjang
Kerana kita masih bujang
Bolehkah kita berjumpa lagi
Agar ikatan dapat disimpul mati.

myHome
june 19, 2007
Tuesday

Monday, June 18, 2007

it's all by chance...

we used to talk together
we used to walk together
we used to eat together
we used to drink water.

we still like each other
we still remember one another
we still have each other
we still have different lover.

we have the same behaviour
we share the what-so-ever
we swim across the same river
we hate the same type of reporter.

we are likely the same
but sorry,
we'll never be the same.
because you'll remain
with your name.
but me
will be just like Bean.

aku mohon

aku mohon keampunan
kerana kempunan
akan kejayaan yang kesekian.
dan aku kasihan akan
perjuangan tak berkesudahan.

aku mohon kejayaan
kerana aku kempunan
akan keampunan
yang berpanjangan
kerana dosaku tak kehabisan.

aku mohon penghabisan
akan hidup kebosanan.
aku mohon dijagakan
dari lena diulit intan.
aku mohon digerakkan
dari segenap perhentian.
aku mohon dibezakan
antara kehidupan
dan kematian.

Tuhan,aku mohon dijauhkan
dari segala kejahatan
aku mohon ditunjukkan
jalan-jalan kebenaran.

Monday, June 04, 2007

sebuah penjelajahan

kehangatan pagi yang dingin ini
menyebarkan ribuan rasa kesedihan.
bisik bayu lembut menyapa pipiku
membawa khabar kesedihan.
sesak kota Padang pagi ini
ku tak rasa ingin pergi.
sekalipun cintaku di tanah ini
masih serapuh keripik balado,
sekalipun sayangku sehalus
serbuk kopi Bukit Tinggi,
kerinduan yang bakal lahir
pasti setebal kabus Tasik Maninjau.
perjalanan pulang ini pasti sepantas
sepeda motor yang dijadikan ojek
yang hulunya sentiasa menghala
ke gigi jalan sebagai penantian
untuk warga Padang
sebagai tumpangan pulang
untuk para wisata,
sebagai kenderaan keliling kota.

tidak pernah aku sangkal
perjalanan jauh ini jenuh dan penuh
sudahlah jauh, jenuh pula kerana
penuh dengan pengalaman kerana
penuh dengan pandangan.

setinggi Bukit Tinggi kami takluki
seluas Tasik Maninjau kami tinjaui
sesibuk kota Padang kami jelajahi
dalam kembara ini.
dan kini, perjalanan satu jam ini
bakal membuatkan kenangan 5 hari kami
tertinggal di belakangan.

2 juni 2007
8.00 pagi
minangkabau international airpot,IND.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

d E w i ~

Dewi aku mohon beri aku kesempatan
Tuk bisa menebus dosaku kepadamu
Maafkanlah aku yang menyakitimu
Aku tidak pernah menyangka bisa begini

Oh dewi, dengarkanlah…

Dewi kaulah hidupku
Aku cinta padamu sampai mati
Dewi belahlah dadaku
Agar kau tahu
Agar kau mengerti

Wou wou wou

Semua terjadi begitu saja
Tak ada yang serius antara dia dan aku
Tidak ada cinta dan tak ada hati
Hanya karena aku lelaki dan dia wanita

Sunday, March 18, 2007

a pen and a piece of paper

i have a pen on my right
and a paper on the desk.
with a little bit of music
it dances happily on its floor.
the paper starts to be colourful
with lines and shapes anywhere
and everywhere.
i write and draw proudly
with fruts and strets on the stage
but noone is looking at me
noone, noone.

i put on hold for a while
coz my pen's running out of ink.
i put the papers in file
and throw them away in just a blink.

[OnE]

"@##$%/[^-^]\%$##@"

when i look into the eyes of the lion
i know whether it is hungry or not.
but even though i look through your eyes
i will never know whether you are in the mood or not.

when i hear the buzz of the bees,
i'll know that they're flying nearby.
but even i hear your voice dear to my ears
i can't see where you put your lips on.

when i run with my dogs
i know that i'll never lost.
but even we have the map and compass,
i have no idea where to go.

even i can sing a korean song,
i'll never be one
even i can dress like japanese
i'll remain as i am.

"i (Y)am what i (Y)am!"

IpKb liBraRy
march 18, 2007

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

5 hingga 13 Mac 2007 : Tired lyke HeLL!!!

Mac 5
pagi
- final touch of GuaMusng project.
- buat biG bOok beramai2
- urus hal lantikan pensyarah (?) <--- knp skrg???
tgh hari
- xmasuK kelas Mdm Buri-biri ---> aku terpaksa escape kelas.mls nk jupe die!!!

Mac 6
pagi
- escape Kel@s
- lepak kat LiB lagi..dtg lewt.so, xmsk kelas EDU.
- urus hal lantikan pensyarah ---> lagi? heheh..semalam Pengarah xdop, TP pn xdop.
tgh hari
- merempit ke KB..beli Tket Ketapi gurls.
ptg
- naik Bas IpKb yg indah ---> aku duk tdoq kat 'seat' blkg..hohoh
mlm
-smpi kat IPD GuA Mu$aNg ---> taklimat oleh Mdm + Po'we 3ns3m + coordinator
- t i d o q ~

Mac 7
pagi
- bertolak ke SMK Tengku Indera Petra (2)
- bas sko0la+motor accident = 1 ayah studnt meninggal at the scene
- bfast kat kantin ---> trus msk kelas...
~ o b s e r v i n g P n P ~ (not the teachers...)
- aku pg interview Non-academic staff :-)
tgh hari
- sesi perbincangan dgn pentadbir SMK TIP(2)
- luncH kat kantin SMK TIP(2)
- balik ke ' h O s T e L '
ptg
- presentation !!!! Literature with MdM
- dinner merata2...
mlm
- ceramah Anti-dadah + JenaYah
- meetIng tergempar == kne byr RM5 plak dh..aku order mknn lbey...
- balik ---> pekena roti sardin dgn arep n ajanoZ

Mac 8
[lbey krg cm smlam...tp arini ktorg pg SK Seri wangi]
hmm...kne msk kelas n observe...
--bangga tol biler studnts bg salam.."Assalamualaikum,cikgu..."
-terharu sngguh!!!!
tgh hari
- xtvt dgn plajar thn3
- gne bigBook..
- lunch
- bertoLak PuLang...
mlm
- smpi kt IpkB...

Mac 9
L e P @ k i n G ' s D @ y . . . .

Mac 10
basuh baju2..
mlm
- bertolak ke s.Alam
- pekena teh o beng Rm1.60...

mAC 11...
pagi
- jupe NurUL kt sksyn 18
- pg SACC n PlaZa Alm Sntral
tgh hari
- balik ke SKsyn 24
- kuar balik dgn nuaQ
- menang maen bOling
ptg
- pekena nasik kat BoB's
mlm
- pekena nasik kat sksyn24..
- tgk bola
- t i d o Q ~

mac 12
pagi
- pg main campus @ sksyn 2
- jupe Nies n MaBo
- pg panjat Dwn Sri Budiman..---> apa kejadahnya!!
tgh hari
- pulang ke sksYn24
- l e p a k I n G . . . .
ptg
- naek kmuter sorg2 g KL jupe Yop n 'kawan' Yop..
mlm
- pg diGiTal m@LL ---> beli thumbdrve abah
- mkn ns ayam iPoh
- balik ke sKsyn 24 ---> nyaris2 sosot...
- t o i n G . . T o I n G . . t i D o Q ~

mac 13
-malas nk citer..i'm damn TireD!!!!
- makan+mandi+tido...

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Pilihanraya Umum 2007

dlm senyap2...tibe2 kuar flyers kat slruh mktb.28 februari adlh tarikh pilihanraya dan semua wajib mengundi. nak x nak, kne la kuar mengundi. tanpa sebarang kempen, tanpa sebarang pencalonan pilihanraya, tanpa ada calon mempromosi diri, tanpa ada angin, tiba2 aje ada pilihanraya. kl Pak Lah nk rombak kabinet pn, dia akan 'angin-anginkan' dl. ni x, tup2 dh ada pilihanraya. terima je ah~

aku x tau la nk wat camner. harap2 aku x dpt jd JPP. dlm ms yang sekangkang kera setapak bayi ni, tak berbaloi pn aku jd JPP kt ipkb. ngabihkan boreh, mmbakar lemak ajo!! hahah!!! baik la bg 'anak' kandung mktb yg setia menanti sehingga kering air liur di pipi. aku x lapar jawatan, aku x dahaga sokongan. aku hanya mengharap pada angin perubahan biarpn sekadar sepoi-sepoi yang x berkesudahan.

aku sentiasa sedar tuhan menguji aku dan bukan hnya aku, bahkan kita sekalian.

terima kasih tuhan,
atas ujian-ujian
kerana ujian
beri aku kesedaran...

oNe

Sunday, February 25, 2007

i'm aliVe

finally, i'm losing myself
with butt on my head
and shit on my face
i'm unable to overcome
the A to Z of bullshit.
i aint bluffing
i aint lying
i aint cheating
as the truth is what i'm telling.
finally, i'm losing myself
with blood and mud
covered my holy face
and i'm unable to connect
and reconnect myself
with the real world.

i'm tired of being me
with fake smile
and true cry
i'll walk slowly
through the unscripted wall
with hope that happyness
is at the other side.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

u shud, but i shudnt...

"for feeling d way i shudnt

for treating u d way i shudnt

for causing u pain..."

feb17,2007

actually, i wud like 2 apologize as well..

now y?

1st - i used to hv some kinda feeling 2wards u, but then i refused to continue havin dat feeling. nw, i hv a feeling 2wards u, but only as a friend.

2nd - i used to treat u in a special way, but now i only treat u like my sister, my senpal, my friend...

3rd - i might cause u pain, internally @ externally...coz my words sometimes are harsh n inappropriate. my actions are somehow weird n unacceptable...

pape pn,

"kitakan kawan" :-)