What am I supposed to do?

Now, I’m miles away from you,
surrounded by the eyes of Hidatsa.
I feel scared and lonely,
I feel like I’m not meant to be here.

If I send a letter to you every hour,
I know it’s not enough for both of us
As through letters you only can see
the plain and motionless side of me.
As through letters I only can say, ‘Hi!’
and ends it with a ‘bye!’

Without knowing how well you are,
Without seeing through your silky eyes
I admit that I really miss you
I admit that I really want you to be here
as much as you need me there.

But, as I’m miles away from you,
I hope we are ready for meeting up,
Rather than playing hide-and-seek.

Monday
October 2, 2006