~dan mungkin bila nanti

~life must go on. Despite of having difficulties in the past few weeks, I realise that I have to set a goal to attain in my life. I've been circling in one place for such a long time and I feel that this is the time I have to make some changes in my life. I'm not going to swing birch tree like what Robert Frost did in his poem, the Birches. I'm thinking of going somewhere else where I can feel the calmness and peace rather than having the mood of solemnity here. I'm tired of thinking my unsolved problems and I've decided not to turn back....

"Hidup mesti terus...Hidup adalah berjuang."

::dah x macam dulu::

~SeLaMaT MeNyAmBuT MaUlIdUrRaSuL...
~hati aku tergerak untuk jumpe dia. aku x sanggup tgk die mcm tu. baru2 ni, nampak kat kbmall pun aku tak tego. bukan benci, tapi malu + segan nak tegur dia... ntah la...dah salah aku.
hmm...xtau nak buat camne lagi ni. yg penting, aku dh xnk bersama dia lagi. cuma kalau aku diberi kekuatan untuk berjumpa dan bercakap dengan dia, aku akan cakap.... ;-/

Ya, Allah. Kurniakanlah kekuatan kepadaku dan dia untuk terus menghadapi hari-hari mendatang....Aminn...

...holiday?

~dia dah balik...aku dah malas nak mcal, msg apatah lagi. aku bukan benci dia, tapi sekadar cuba untuk melupakan sebuah 'persembahan dari surga' yang cukup indah itu. maafkan aku. aku bukan benci, tapi aku cuba sekuat-kuat hati aku untuk melupainya dan sekadar menerima apa yang telah terjadi.

~exam dah dekat. campur tolak, ada la kurang lebih dua minggu sebelum exam. tak tau la mcm ner aku nyer perfomance utk exam kali ni. preparation dah buat (yer ke??) tapi, still aku x rasa confident untuk masuk exam hall tuh ;-) harap2 aku bleh buat yg terbaik...

~nak balik umah hari ni. esok cuti maulud... haha... 1st time x hantar saper2 biler balik... :-(

>>thanks God I'm alive...

>>hadapi dengan senyuman, semua yang terjadi, biar terjadi...

::terima kasih::

"maybe you can find a better person than her..."

itulah msg yg aku terima malam tadi. mungkin sekadar untuk 'memujuk' hati aku yang patah ni. terima kasih. sekurang2nye aku sedar, x semua yang aku nak, itu yang akan aku dapat. xsemua yang aku fikir betul itu, betul. xsemua yg aku fikir salah itu salah...aku bgtau kat panJe malam tadi. pastu aku msg ka'Are_gee. bgtau apa yang berlaku beberapa hari lepas...hmm...betul aku perlu abaikan dan 'busy'kan diri aku utk buat benda lain.daripada pikir benda2 yang menyedihkan ini. perghh...malam tadi aku mmg blurrrrr....aku xtau nk cakap dgn sape. last2, terkeluar jugak pada panJe. Hah! dah la...tutup buku pasal benda ni...biler hati aku terbuka, ketika itu aku telah tiada di sini.itu harapanku...

malas dah aku nak pikir pasal benda ni. aku pn dah letih 'menipu' dier. dah la tu ek...kalau ada jodoh, ada la. kalau xde, xkan nk paksa2 lak, kan?

p/s: tanx panJe, ka'Are_gee...

~Still I'm Sure We'll Love Again

There was a piano
We use to play
And spend the time
'Til we found it was love
Hidding inside us
Can not separate us
There's a flame of love
Searching in the dark
It's there to guide us
But through the days beyond the haze
I can see you reaching out to hold me

Still I'm sure we'll love again
It's a matter of time
I will belong to you,
You belong to me
How can I convince you girl
That I'm stuck on you
Can't find another heart
I love you more each day (I love you more each day...)
Never though never cross my mind
You gave everything
You ask me just holding on
If I could just walk away
To love again with somebody new
Too many memories
Release the passion inside
And set them free
But through the days beyond the haze
I can see you reaching out to hold me

...akhirnya

She.

You know it's too late,
to bring back all my faith.. in you.
You know it's too far away,
to bring back all the past ... today.

It's all in my head.

I care for u,
I'm needing you,
i care for u..

(daily flavoured tunes)

~inilah yang aku takutkan selama ini. Pada masa yang sepatutnya aku cakap, aku diam. bila aku patut diam, aku melatah di khalayak. Aku khayal dalam dunia ciptaanku sendiri. Aku sepatutnya berlari, namun aku sekadar bertatih untuk mengejar. Akhirnya, aku sendiri yang membodohkan diri. Menyesal? sudah pasti. Aku tidak perlu menyalahkan takdir, kerana terang-terang kelihatan salah diri ini. Maafkan aku. Ketakutan ini aku tidak cuba hindari, bahaya ini dengan sengaja aku hampiri. Kini, perahu sudah putus tali, kata-kata terlepas mematahkan hati. Aku mengecewakan insan yang menaruh hati...pada hati yang tidak suci ini.

~hmm...

.....Arghhh!!!!!!

nasihat aku: betulkan yang biasa, biasakan yang betul...

::I will never complain::

~huh! what a damn shit thing had happend in this world.
I should keep my mouth shut since the 1st day I arrive here.
I've been talking too much and I thing that this is the time for me
to keep my mouth in a 'safe-mode' condition....
why?
never ask me question like that...I won't answer it.
well...whatever the odds, I've to climb to the top, rite?
I'll never complain again.
I'll accept every obstacle as a challenge for me...
or,
as a test from God The Almighty to a slave like me.

::yang dekat::

~i can't stand like this anymore...
seems like i'm cheating someone (really?) huh!
i dunno who actually in my mind,
and who's stolen my heart...
hahaha...gotta think about this matter carefully.
dun want to make a stupid decision anymore.
perhaps, i will find someone...for what?
dunno....
~biler dekat, lain...biler jauh, lain...

::h m m . . .::

~someone msg me dis morning telling me dat she has lost her purse.
it's happend when she's on the bus...hmm...dunno how.
i'm thinking of making a phone call 2nite...
hmm...but my credit is running out...
~well, my xm is just around da corner.
preparation = nil!!!
hahaha...i don't want to repeat the xm.
hei...cant say why i lost my strength and mood 2 study...

::abp-bh 2004::

~CONGRATZ to Siti Nurhaliza...berjaya merampas kembali takhta sebagai Bintang Paling Popular. Even though dier x sempat sampai ke Arena of Stars, dier dh rakamkan ucapan die dari London before her concert at Albert Hall, London...duhh....
~aku sempat tengok pun start drpd Anugerah Khas.Ada kelas Mr Su lak tadi...hehehe....
~yang penting, aku sempat tgk Kembara performs....

::mirai e...::

Kiroro - Mirai e

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Haha ga kureta takusan no yasashisa
Ai wo idaite ayumeto kurikaeshita
Ano toki wa mada osanakute imi nado shiranai
Sonna watashi no te wo nigiri
Isshoni ayundekita

Yume wa itsumo sora takaku aru kara
Todokanakute kowai ne dakedo oitsuzukeru no
Jibun no story dakara koso akirametakunai
Fuan ni naruto te wo nigiri
Isshoni ayundekita

Sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Sono yasashisa wo toki ni wa iyagari
Hanareta haha e sunao ni narezu

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai

Hora ashimoto wo mite goran
Kore ga anata no ayumu michi
Hora mae wo mite goran
Are ga anata no mirai
Mirai e mukatte
Yukkuri to aruite yukou

::huhu..payah giler nak cari lirik ni. betul ke ni yang aku nak, aku pun xtau. aku tak tanya pun sape2 pasal lirik ni..kalau betul...betul la. kalau salah...Junjung titah patik harap diampun..::

::dalam kabut::

kabut
buat aku kalut
mataku berair dikala serabut.
mindaku bersabut
dahiku kerut
mula merungut.

kabut
buat aku ribut
dan tambah kalut
dan tambah kalut
aku bersungut
bahu tersenggut-senggut.

kabut
aku makin kalut
dalam kabut.

~kota bharoe,
~4.15 pm
~1 april `05