a pen and a piece of paper

i have a pen on my right
and a paper on the desk.
with a little bit of music
it dances happily on its floor.
the paper starts to be colourful
with lines and shapes anywhere
and everywhere.
i write and draw proudly
with fruts and strets on the stage
but noone is looking at me
noone, noone.

i put on hold for a while
coz my pen's running out of ink.
i put the papers in file
and throw them away in just a blink.

[OnE]

"@##$%/[^-^]\%$##@"

when i look into the eyes of the lion
i know whether it is hungry or not.
but even though i look through your eyes
i will never know whether you are in the mood or not.

when i hear the buzz of the bees,
i'll know that they're flying nearby.
but even i hear your voice dear to my ears
i can't see where you put your lips on.

when i run with my dogs
i know that i'll never lost.
but even we have the map and compass,
i have no idea where to go.

even i can sing a korean song,
i'll never be one
even i can dress like japanese
i'll remain as i am.

"i (Y)am what i (Y)am!"

IpKb liBraRy
march 18, 2007

5 hingga 13 Mac 2007 : Tired lyke HeLL!!!

Mac 5
pagi
- final touch of GuaMusng project.
- buat biG bOok beramai2
- urus hal lantikan pensyarah (?) <--- knp skrg???
tgh hari
- xmasuK kelas Mdm Buri-biri ---> aku terpaksa escape kelas.mls nk jupe die!!!

Mac 6
pagi
- escape Kel@s
- lepak kat LiB lagi..dtg lewt.so, xmsk kelas EDU.
- urus hal lantikan pensyarah ---> lagi? heheh..semalam Pengarah xdop, TP pn xdop.
tgh hari
- merempit ke KB..beli Tket Ketapi gurls.
ptg
- naik Bas IpKb yg indah ---> aku duk tdoq kat 'seat' blkg..hohoh
mlm
-smpi kat IPD GuA Mu$aNg ---> taklimat oleh Mdm + Po'we 3ns3m + coordinator
- t i d o q ~

Mac 7
pagi
- bertolak ke SMK Tengku Indera Petra (2)
- bas sko0la+motor accident = 1 ayah studnt meninggal at the scene
- bfast kat kantin ---> trus msk kelas...
~ o b s e r v i n g P n P ~ (not the teachers...)
- aku pg interview Non-academic staff :-)
tgh hari
- sesi perbincangan dgn pentadbir SMK TIP(2)
- luncH kat kantin SMK TIP(2)
- balik ke ' h O s T e L '
ptg
- presentation !!!! Literature with MdM
- dinner merata2...
mlm
- ceramah Anti-dadah + JenaYah
- meetIng tergempar == kne byr RM5 plak dh..aku order mknn lbey...
- balik ---> pekena roti sardin dgn arep n ajanoZ

Mac 8
[lbey krg cm smlam...tp arini ktorg pg SK Seri wangi]
hmm...kne msk kelas n observe...
--bangga tol biler studnts bg salam.."Assalamualaikum,cikgu..."
-terharu sngguh!!!!
tgh hari
- xtvt dgn plajar thn3
- gne bigBook..
- lunch
- bertoLak PuLang...
mlm
- smpi kt IpkB...

Mac 9
L e P @ k i n G ' s D @ y . . . .

Mac 10
basuh baju2..
mlm
- bertolak ke s.Alam
- pekena teh o beng Rm1.60...

mAC 11...
pagi
- jupe NurUL kt sksyn 18
- pg SACC n PlaZa Alm Sntral
tgh hari
- balik ke SKsyn 24
- kuar balik dgn nuaQ
- menang maen bOling
ptg
- pekena nasik kat BoB's
mlm
- pekena nasik kat sksyn24..
- tgk bola
- t i d o Q ~

mac 12
pagi
- pg main campus @ sksyn 2
- jupe Nies n MaBo
- pg panjat Dwn Sri Budiman..---> apa kejadahnya!!
tgh hari
- pulang ke sksYn24
- l e p a k I n G . . . .
ptg
- naek kmuter sorg2 g KL jupe Yop n 'kawan' Yop..
mlm
- pg diGiTal m@LL ---> beli thumbdrve abah
- mkn ns ayam iPoh
- balik ke sKsyn 24 ---> nyaris2 sosot...
- t o i n G . . T o I n G . . t i D o Q ~

mac 13
-malas nk citer..i'm damn TireD!!!!
- makan+mandi+tido...

Pilihanraya Umum 2007

dlm senyap2...tibe2 kuar flyers kat slruh mktb.28 februari adlh tarikh pilihanraya dan semua wajib mengundi. nak x nak, kne la kuar mengundi. tanpa sebarang kempen, tanpa sebarang pencalonan pilihanraya, tanpa ada calon mempromosi diri, tanpa ada angin, tiba2 aje ada pilihanraya. kl Pak Lah nk rombak kabinet pn, dia akan 'angin-anginkan' dl. ni x, tup2 dh ada pilihanraya. terima je ah~

aku x tau la nk wat camner. harap2 aku x dpt jd JPP. dlm ms yang sekangkang kera setapak bayi ni, tak berbaloi pn aku jd JPP kt ipkb. ngabihkan boreh, mmbakar lemak ajo!! hahah!!! baik la bg 'anak' kandung mktb yg setia menanti sehingga kering air liur di pipi. aku x lapar jawatan, aku x dahaga sokongan. aku hanya mengharap pada angin perubahan biarpn sekadar sepoi-sepoi yang x berkesudahan.

aku sentiasa sedar tuhan menguji aku dan bukan hnya aku, bahkan kita sekalian.

terima kasih tuhan,
atas ujian-ujian
kerana ujian
beri aku kesedaran...

oNe