i'm aliVe

finally, i'm losing myself
with butt on my head
and shit on my face
i'm unable to overcome
the A to Z of bullshit.
i aint bluffing
i aint lying
i aint cheating
as the truth is what i'm telling.
finally, i'm losing myself
with blood and mud
covered my holy face
and i'm unable to connect
and reconnect myself
with the real world.

i'm tired of being me
with fake smile
and true cry
i'll walk slowly
through the unscripted wall
with hope that happyness
is at the other side.

u shud, but i shudnt...

"for feeling d way i shudnt

for treating u d way i shudnt

for causing u pain..."

feb17,2007

actually, i wud like 2 apologize as well..

now y?

1st - i used to hv some kinda feeling 2wards u, but then i refused to continue havin dat feeling. nw, i hv a feeling 2wards u, but only as a friend.

2nd - i used to treat u in a special way, but now i only treat u like my sister, my senpal, my friend...

3rd - i might cause u pain, internally @ externally...coz my words sometimes are harsh n inappropriate. my actions are somehow weird n unacceptable...

pape pn,

"kitakan kawan" :-)